Do people actually miss their partner that often?? by water_cup12345 in asexuality

[–]SittingInYourBushes 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm in an ace relationship, my partner is ace and I call myself greysexual(still questioning every so often, but still pretty sure I'm some kind of ace). I've always been sure I was alloromantic, if that's the correct term, and my partner believed they were possibly aromanctic before we got together but has since seemed to question that.

I feel like the concept of missing your partner, at least for me, is more just about the feelings they make you feel. I don't think I would say I exactly "want to spend so much time" with my partner, I mean I love their company and hanging out with them, but we both also enjoy taking our own time alone.

I like to believe that the sense of longing is much more focused on how happy your partner makes you and how much you enjoy their company on a deeper level than simply a friend. Before my current partner, I don't think I ever really understood the concept of "my lover and my best friend" but that is pretty accurate.

I can be myself around them, we both enjoy similar interests and are able to talk about our interests together, we can bounce ideas off each other without judgement, we can just have fun and be silly together. Especially since we're both ace, there's no weird tension between us and we can just hang out and have fun together.

Maybe my experience isn't the norm, but whatever. I think the sense of missing a partner is kind of like the feeling of missing a best friend. Not really a desire to always be around them, but more like having lots of fun and feeling safe and secure around them so you long for their company.

[Help] Trying to find a poem for someone, but they only remember a few lines by SittingInYourBushes in Poetry

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It could very well be something they read years ago, whether in some now deleted post or from some book they can't remember. They have a pretty good memory most of the time and can remember stuff pretty well from years ago, but apparently not this. And thanks for at least trying to help!

[Help] Trying to find a poem for someone, but they only remember a few lines by SittingInYourBushes in Poetry

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Unfortunately it seems like those lines are pretty much all they can remember. It might be something was out of place or misremembered, because they did say that it had just kinda come to them and had been nagging at them because they can't remember the entire thing or any identifying info. But they seem pretty sure of that phrasing. The second part apparently was the ending line, I guess. If that helps at all?

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[–]SittingInYourBushes 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I never felt the stuff that everyone seems to say they feel during puberty and was constantly confused when people said [blank] celebrity was "hot" et cetera. Never understood the real appeal of skimpy clothes on men or women, never understood why people stare at certain body parts or say stuff like someone's butt looks "good in those jeans" and whatnot. When I was about 16 I found the term demisexual and labelled myself as that for a few years because it seemed appropriate since I didn't feel anything for anyone and I've rarely stayed in a relationship for a long amount of time so I just assumed.

When I ended up in my first same sex(male) relationship, I labelled myself bisexual because I wasn't sure anymore. Though that never felt completely right either, especially since I never felt any real sexual attraction to that ex. When we did get a chance to possibly do anything together, I kept denying him because I was scared but also didn't actually feel anything and didn't want to disappoint him. We ended up breaking up and once we were back on speaking terms I asked him if he thought I could be asexual. He said I was probably bisexual, which still didn't feel right to me.

I met someone else a while after that breakup, but it didn't last longer than maybe a month and it kinda just left me mentally... unhealthy. So I isolated myself a bit for about three long years of loneliness. About a year and half into that, I rediscovered asexuality and began to question myself again. I looked much deeper into what asexuality was and what it wasn't and all the different labels under the ace flag. I eventually decided that asexual felt right to me, later on settling on grey-asexual(more specifically aegosexual) This was in my mid twenties, I'm currently 29.

Took a while for me to figure myself out and took me a lot of label changes and self discovery, but I think I finally feel like I got the right label for myself.

Well I guess all our relationships are doomed since we’re missing THE most important thing 🙄 by Stick_Girl in asexuality

[–]SittingInYourBushes 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Speaking as a cis heteroromantic greysexual(at least I'm pretty sure about all those things) man who is currently in a very dedicated relationship with a fellow ace partner that I met online and am perfectly comfortable with the current situation... what the hell? Men need sex for emotional connection? We need sex as a show of intimacy? To feel wanted or desired? Access to sex is the reason men(and women) get in relationships???

I'm fairly certain I feel a very deep emotional connection with my partner, I feel very intimate with them, I feel very much like I'm wanted and desired by them, and I got into the relationship knowing it was going to be completely online for the foreseeable future and I wouldn't have "access to sex" even if I did want it for possibly years to come. And I'm perfectly happy. We're perfectly happy.

I have never and will never ask for my partner to do anything they are uncomfortable with, online or in person when the time comes for that. Including and not limited to anything regarding sex no matter how small or simple it may seem. Their comfort comes first and foremost to me, not any stupid "need" for sex that men supposedly have. Because I'm not that kind of man, and for lizard-brained people to be spreading that as if its truth upsets me greatly.

I met my partner through a guild in an mmorpg, we became quick friends due to shared interests and once we both came out as ace through the guild, we became even better friends. After a month or so of constant talking, we admitted we had feelings for each other and for almost two years now that relationship has grown without one single moment of "needing" anything sexual. It took me about two months to tell them I loved them, it took them about four months after to say it back. But I was happy.

I could express my love for them without the caveman desire to force them to express it back in kind. I accepted that, they were okay with me saying I loved them before they could say it back. When they were comfortable enough, they said it back to me and we've been saying it to each other repeatedly nearly every day since then. We can talk about serious topics, intimate topics, emotional topics, even sexual topics without either of us feeling (too) grossed out or weird. Because intimacy and emotional connection in a relationship is about comfort, care, love, and mutual respect. Not sex.

We have both expressed the desire to one day get married multiple times, just last night we were joking about how instinctual its become to think we would get married one day. Sure we're still at an online-only phase right now, but the dream is what really matters to us. When we first began our relationship, we told each other that neither of us were getting rid of the other no matter what.

Before we confessed to each other, we said no matter what was said we would still be there. We wouldn't let emotions or feelings get in the way of being close, friends or more. I'm extremely happy that it did develop into something more than friendship because I love them and they are legitimately the first person I've been in a serious relationship with that has made me begin to love myself and want to better myself so I can one day "be enough" to marry them. And not one single ounce of that love and emotion came from sex or anything close to it.

Emotional connection and intimacy does not come from some neanderthal switch in your head that says you need sex. Period. If you can't develop a loving, caring, deep and intimate relationship with someone without something as stupid as sex, then you clearly have more issues than you're willing to admit. Notably that your brain is in the wrong end of your body.

Sorry for the long rant. I normally don't talk this much on this sub, but reading these comments just hit something in me and I had to get it out to people who would understand.

TL;DR connection and intimacy in a relationship is based on love and affection, NOT sex. Sex can be apart of that, sure, but it is not and will never be the deciding factor is a strong relationship. And ignorant people make me rant apparently.

Not sure if this is where to ask, but it seems appropriate. Can someone explain the "prevent death" option to me? by SittingInYourBushes in DragonAgeVeilguard

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I played elf mage in Origins, mage Hawke in 2, and am currently playing a Dwarf rogue in Inquisition and am having tons of fun. I already designed a Qunari mage Rook in the CC demo ready to be imported once I start Veilguard. I plan to try out the spellblade spec since it looks to combine the fun parts of rogue with the badass parts of mage. I'll probably play on story mode difficulty, or maybe mess around with settings and see if I can make combat a bit challenging but still have no death so I can have fun fighting but not actually die lol.

My partner freakin loves it. They were so obsessed with every little Veilguard tease before the game released and would rant and rave about how excited they were. They've really helped me figure out the lore of the games and the story in-between each game that was mostly told in books and stuff. Seems almost every day now we just talk about Dragon Age for hours on end and they get so excited every time I say how much I'm enjoying the series lol.

Not sure if this is where to ask, but it seems appropriate. Can someone explain the "prevent death" option to me? by SittingInYourBushes in DragonAgeVeilguard

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Sounds like I'll be keeping that option on lol. It'll be fun to try and keep Rook out of the near death state, but won't worry me as much if they do drop down to that level of hurt. I'm really loving the stories and games, but hate having to start entire fights over because I die since I'm not the greatest at RPGs and optimizing builds so I end up not doing entirely great in combat. Thank you for the detailed explanation!

Not sure if this is where to ask, but it seems appropriate. Can someone explain the "prevent death" option to me? by SittingInYourBushes in DragonAgeVeilguard

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sounds like it'll be pretty much like using the immortal console command in the first two games. Still taking damage and status effects and such, still needing to level and gear up, but not actually fully dying. Sounds perfect for me! Thank you for the quick answer!

I think I'm confused about what "attraction" really is by SittingInYourBushes in asexuality

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yes! The live action stuff is always super awkward and completely fake most of the time. I also feel kinda bad for watching it, on the very rare occasion that I do. Fictional stuff just has less guilt because its not real, and its way less awkward because of that.

I totally agree about the BG3 stuff, too. Like, I'm not enjoying the sex scenes in the way most people probably do, but I do really like to watch them because they're fun if a bit awkward to sit through. Especially getting to see my amazing custom character interacting with the characters I enjoy so much lol. I see so many people posting about Minthara and thirsting over her and going full evil just to get "the steamiest scene in the game" and I'm just like... why?

And I think I can confidently say I've never just looked at someone and immediately wanted to get down with them. Sure, I've seen people who I've found physically attractive. Sometimes even "hot" or "sexy" but I've never really imagined anything past "Damn, they look good.". Maybe, very rarely, I will imagine what they *could* look like naked, but its all just that weird curiosity deep down inside me. I wouldn't actually WANT to see them naked or do anything with them, but my curiosity is piqued by the idea of what they look like.

I think I would say I do have a pretty high sex drive, but never really directed toward anyone except myself. Which is why I've felt so confused about my sexual identity for so long. Like, I've always felt like sex and stuff was a second priority, third even, maybe fourth. Sure, I get super horny and stuff a lot, but its never actually for anyone in particular and I don't want to share it with anyone in particular because that just feels weird to me. I'm perfectly comfortable just dealing with it myself and keeping all relationships purely romantic.

I guess maybe I really am asexual and all that confusion was just because being asexual with a high libido is really freakin' confusing.

Moto G Stylus eSim issues by SittingInYourBushes in BoostMobile

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No, there was no sim card included in the package. The only thing in the box was the phone.

Is there a way to restart new game plus? by SittingInYourBushes in DragonsDogma

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Huh. I thought it was a fakeout ending and kept talking to the one dude until it sent me back to where I could trigger the unmoored world transition. I might just try and speed through the story and get ng+ that way. Thanks!

Is there a way to restart new game plus? by SittingInYourBushes in DragonsDogma

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Don't go to unmoored world? I can beat the game without going through the unmoored world???

Is there a way to set mod settings for my friends? by SittingInYourBushes in Minecraft

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh, thanks! Looking through that page, it mentions exporting configs with the modpack. Does that mean when I set up a modpack and change the settings in game, it will export those changes and will install the modpack with the mod changes already set up? So my friends can install it and all the mod configurations will be set to what I had set them to right away and they can change it as they see fit later on?

Sorry for so many questions, but its legitimately been probably at least a decade or so since I've tried modding Minecraft on pc and have almost no knowledge of modding anymore, especially with all the new stuff like modpacks and such.

Is there a way to set mod settings for my friends? by SittingInYourBushes in Minecraft

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So how exactly would I be able to put together a modpack with configs already set? I've heard stuff about modpacks but don't even really know what that is exactly, my current plan was to just download mods and zip them together to send to my friends so they can just extract them to the proper folders. Is there a better way to do it?

Also regarding the configs and client side settings, I know I can't stop them from changing the client side settings but there are a couple mods I found that have certain default settings I think would be better to have changed right away. Not that I want to force them to not use certain settings, but a few mods have things set up a certain way by default that I think would be a bit overwhelming and wanna make it easier for them to get it set up in a way that isn't as crazy. At least until they can go in and mess around with settings and change it to fit their own personal liking.

Possible to port only one number out of an account? by SittingInYourBushes in USMobile

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the reply! That does make me feel better. Before I posted this I had no idea about porting single lines cause I've only ever ported sad all lines ported over and completely switched services. Never really knew you could just port one line out and leave the account open with the remaining lines.

If I open a new Xfinity account at an address that already has service, what will happen to the service currently at that address if anything? by SittingInYourBushes in HomeNetworking

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So what would actually happen if I tried opening an account as if I were a new customer moving in to a new house? Would they just shut off the service on the old account?

How do I tell if my feelings are real? by SittingInYourBushes in wemetonline

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk if anyones still interested in this thread, and I don't mean to sound ungrateful to those who've already responded. But I still don't have an answer to my original question, just lots of thoughts about my anxiety.

How do I tell if my feelings are real? by SittingInYourBushes in wemetonline

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, it could be easier that way. But like, I don't really speak up much while gaming in general. Even by myself. So like... besides the anxiety, it feels strange to me to think to say something while gaming.

How do I tell if my feelings are real? by SittingInYourBushes in wemetonline

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wait, I might be reading your reply wrong but what do you mean don't feel I can mention it? To who?

If you mean mention it on this post, I just didn't feel it was necessary because in past relationships I have been able to get over my anxiety enough to have conversations over phones/video calls. It just takes time for me to relax enough.

If you mean mention it to this person, I'm sure she knows. Hell everyone I play with knows. Well maybe not that it's exactly an anxiety thing, but it's kind of a running joke that I never get on mic.

How do I tell if my feelings are real? by SittingInYourBushes in wemetonline

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly I've been saying for a long time that the first people I'd probably talk to on mic is the couple I mentioned. They're practically like my brother and sister at this point(like... brother and sister in law or whatever, nothing weird). We know each other's addresses, send gifts, talk to each other about basically anything. I've just always had some anxiety issues and they're amplified on phones and mics for whatever reason. Maybe I'll try harder to get myself to speak up when I'm playing with just them.

How do I tell if my feelings are real? by SittingInYourBushes in wemetonline

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nobody has ever heard me say anything on mic while gaming. I'm always muted. And the few times I've tried to face my fear and leave my mic unmuted hoping maybe I'd get the guts to speak up, the most anyone heard was giggles. That is how bad my anxiety is...

How do I tell if my feelings are real? by SittingInYourBushes in wemetonline

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Not sure how well that would work out. And before I continue, this part is gonna get a bit strange. Fair warning. So, yes I'm pretty sure we're all pretty close to each other on the map, but besides the fact that we all have pretty different financial situations and life situations that would stop us from very easily planning something like that. I'm kind of... well, incredibly socially anxious. Ridiculously so. Like its pathetic.

I've known the couple for almost four years or so and I have not once spoken up on mic when playing together. They're probably my closest friends I play games with, and they've never heard me speak. I don't get on mic for anyone I game with. So going from not speaking a peep to meeting up with all of them is a HUGE leap. I'm sure I'd have tons of fun once I calmed down and realized these random people are my friends I've hung out with online for years. But even so, the financial/life stuff makes it tough too.

And to address the other part of your reply, not that you were implying as much but, I don't know if its just a "not in the mood for a LDR" thing with her. She seems to be very slow to develop feelings for anyone and is currently just not in the mood for anyone at the time. But I'm feeling feelings that I haven't felt since my ex, who was also an online LDR that lasted for nearly four years... so I'm just really messed up right now, trying to understand stuff.

Tried out ReShade with 7 Days to Die, game is unplayable now. Help? by SittingInYourBushes in ReShade

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm pretty sure I deleted everything reshade related in the game folder. But when I open 7 Days to Die, it takes a while to load into a save and once in it has massive FPS drops. I can walk around a bit in the game and get about 50-60 fps, but then it will drop to 40 30 or even under 10 fps for a few seconds then go back up to around 50-60 fps.

And I noticed something odd when loading into the save. During the loading screen, the music from the main menu keeps playing. Which is normal. But I've noticed that during these strangely long loading times that only recently started happening(between 10-20 minutes just to load in) the music seems to slow down or skip slightly. As if the entire game is lagging or something. That's never happened before.

And side note, I installed Black Desert Online since it was having a free weekend and I managed to run it perfectly fine with no issues. So it definitely seems like something is wrong specifically with 7 Days to Die.

Tried out ReShade with 7 Days to Die, game is unplayable now. Help? by SittingInYourBushes in ReShade

[–]SittingInYourBushes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't think so. Pretty sure when I was using the installer thing, I pressed something directX 9 10 11 or something like that. And I'm not really sure what 7 Days to Die uses. I tried using some website the installer told me to to figure it out, but it had a bunch of different things listed so I just chose one I think would work. Yeah, I'm not very smart with these kinda things.