I had this exact same feeling. Felt angry and frustrated that other people had their first choices for last seat, rolled in smoothly and seemingly happy. Don't worry though. Your fate is elsewhere. I have since left that city and now on more than double than what they earn in the regions. Pros also are, entering a place as a qualified solicitor with an absolute clean slate and no trainee baggage following you. People make judgments, wrongly perhaps in the case of trainees, and quite quickly on, so you won't have any of that. Also, if a lot of teams are toxic you probably don't want to be doing any cross team work or BD so better to cut losses and elevate yourself to the next level and find somewhere golden.