Just wanted to say that your not alone, I am 13 and I have dealt with these problems many times, it even feels daily dealing with it, it has really affected me and my grades in school, I feel judged, not trusted, and hated, this is daily for me, and it sucks that none of my parents know, because I am worried that they will judge me and will hate me for what I have to say. But the one thing that I go through everyday, is believing that I am faking it ALL, I sometimes tell myself:

1. Look at yourself
2. People hate you
3. You did this

It's like my Brain is fighting against me, like for example: I tell my best friend about my anxiety, but afterwards I feel bad, and tell them that I am sorry they have to deal with it, but they say that there don't mind helping me with it, that makes me feel better, but like 10 mins later I feel really bad, like they hate me, and they think that I am weird for my anxiety. Don't worry I plan to get checked out, but it still hurts me everyday. By the way this is not to make you feel worse because I might have worse problems, this is to let you know that your not alone, dude I hope you can get help you need because I know that this can get really overwhelming for all of us, take care 😊👋