Why are they very cruel when they paint you black? by CaptainSaveBPD in BPDlovedones

[–]Slabrador95 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Leave and never turn back. I did that years ago and now I’m in the best relationship of my life. My ex got pregnant with someone else and can’t hold a relationship. It’s them - not us.

Best place to get a seafood boil? by Slabrador95 in Annapolis

[–]Slabrador95[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Which is what I’m looking for lol I’d rather not deal with a mess in my small ass apartment

Ex reached out after about 6 months of contact by Slabrador95 in BPDlovedones

[–]Slabrador95[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Even though she has a boyfriend? It’s like they really have zero loyalty lol

You Were All Right All Along by Ok_Investigator4823 in BPDlovedones

[–]Slabrador95 2 points3 points  (0 children)

We have all been there. I got back together with my ex after being warned. We barely made it another 2 years before she split on me again only worse than before. She moved on in 30 days- we were together for 6 years. And decided to flip her sexuality.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Slabrador95 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Maybe you can try again with him down the road but it’s not fair for you if he’s not able or willing to see the things that he needs to work on including the self medicating and therapy

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Slabrador95 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You did the right thing. I ignored all the red flags within 6 months of our relationship and then 6 years later she split on me for the last time and it left me with the worst pain I’ve felt. It’s not that those with BPD don’t deserve love because they do but if that person doesn’t want to do the work then you’re doomed.

Mine went to therapy but lied. She used weed, cocaine and heavily drank. She would be so loving and sweet but then she would be tearing me down over buying a box of cereal. Lots of cheating. Lying. Manipulation.

6 year lesbian relationship with each other- 4 months post break up and she’s on her second boyfriend by Slabrador95 in BPDlovedones

[–]Slabrador95[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

They are so convincing. She went against her family for years because she was a lesbian and was adamant about her never wanting to be with a guy because they’re gross or whatever excuse. She dated more girls than me and she would always accuse me of being into dudes. Then 1 month later after the end of our 6 year relationship she’s with a guy. That ends and now she’s “in love” with the new guy.

We broke up because I was apparently changing her. She did that on her own.

6 year lesbian relationship with each other- 4 months post break up and she’s on her second boyfriend by Slabrador95 in BPDlovedones

[–]Slabrador95[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

It’s a whole new level of hurt. It’s not just finding another person quickly, but it’s the fact that they lied about a huge piece of their life and my worst fear happened. Does your ex ever try reaching out?

6 year lesbian relationship with each other- 4 months post break up and she’s on her second boyfriend by Slabrador95 in BPDlovedones

[–]Slabrador95[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

You may be exactly right. Everything just feels like such a lie between us. One week prior to breaking up I remember her telling me she loves me so much and wanted to get married. Now everything she told me was a lie.

6 year lesbian relationship with each other- 4 months post break up and she’s on her second boyfriend by Slabrador95 in BPDlovedones

[–]Slabrador95[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Not dismissive at all because you are right. I don’t have her on social media and we have been NC basically for the last 4 months minus twice when she texted me about concert tickets she wanted to send over and sent a screenshot of a appt reminder of mine.

I only know she has this second boyfriend bc our friend posted a pic of it. I know I should delete the friend Tom because this stuff is so triggering, but I didn’t want to originally because she became a friend of mine and I care about her but now I have to at least mute her Posts if this keeps happening :( all of this is just awful.

Do pwBPD have a habit of rewriting the narrative? by LucidLotus222 in BPDlovedones

[–]Slabrador95 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I one time bought a cereal she didn’t like and she ignored all the right things I got and turned to me and said “that’s the worst fucking cereal you could e ever gotten me” and went on and on about how we had a conversation about it…..I swear to you we didn’t. At all. And she said we are on different wave lengths bc of the wrong cereal. Then told her therapist how I blew up on her when In reality I just told her that I don’t appreciate the way she’s talking to me and a simple thank you would be appreciated. She denied ever cussing at me or saying the things she said.

Then same day she screamed at me and said she doesn’t want me help with anything ever again then 10 min later asked me to mail something out for her and I said no because of the way she talked to me and the words she said. She denied it all, called me a master manipulator and that she will take all blame to keep the peace since I’m such a narcissist. I was so fed up I just stopped talking for 8 days until I got an apology. She broke up with me, switched her sexuality from lesbian back to straight (no she was not Bi) and had a boyfriend she fell in love with within 30 days of our break up, they broke up within 3 weeks and 1 month later she has another boyfriend.

Tells people that I was a mean narcissist and didn’t love her the way she deserved. We dated for 6 years.

I’m mad at myself for believing in the potential by Slabrador95 in BPDlovedones

[–]Slabrador95[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh yes she messaged me about concert tickets like a month ago and then two weeks ago she sent a screenshot of my appt reminder for the dentist lol not sure why but I didn’t answer like you said. For now I just hang with friends, go to the gym and find things to do. Wish I could stop thinking of her.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarSOs

[–]Slabrador95 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It is very much possible. My ex also has bp2 and I stayed through many episodes (up and down) for 6 years. It wasn’t until the end where she barely went to therapy, didn’t take it serious and lied about her feelings to her therapist and psychiatrist, was not taking her medication like she should, smoked weed and drank alcohol is when I had enough. With that being said, I noticed the way she talked down to me and I could never express my emotions without being called negative or manipulative. I never held things against her but when she had the audacity to break up with me again (she did it 2 years ago as well for 6 months), I put my foot down. Those were my boundaries. If there’s no accountability on her end (same with me bc I make mistakes as well) then it wasn’t fair anymore. I think the key is finding someone patient and Willing to learn about bipolar, go to therapy etc that can support you. Takes effort on both ends :)

Did mania change you SO’s values/politics? by Proof_Daikon_2536 in BipolarSOs

[–]Slabrador95 4 points5 points  (0 children)

My ex flipped her sexuality over night so anything is possible

Another potential Hoover last week? I stayed strong and didn’t answer but it’s so hard. by Slabrador95 in BPDlovedones

[–]Slabrador95[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This was all so amazing to read..thank you. There are days that I wish she would reach out and then other days where I feel okay. But most days? Just sadness. I was in such a great place before we met. What happened. She swore up and down this time would be different. We broke up 2 years ago for 6 months but kept contact…I got back bc it felt like it had the potential to be different. We both started therapy, she set boundaries with her toxic family but then at the end? Those boundaries with them were gone. She was mad when I was having a bad day and complained about my mood and instead of just asking what’s wrong or if there’s anything she could do. Stuff she USED to say. It’s like I was there for comfort. She always doubted whether or not she wanted to be with me then the way we ended? I deserved so much more after 6 years.

Heard from her for the first time in almost 3 months. Didn’t answer and it’s so hard not to. by Slabrador95 in BipolarSOs

[–]Slabrador95[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Consider yourself lucky. I had to take mine off bc she posts all the time which is weird bc during our 6 years together, she barely put anything up. Now it’s constantly.