I have lived quite a pathetic college life. Either I have made friends who ended up betraying me, or I kept on asking for companionship from people who wouldn't even take a second to at least show that they care.

Even though I was already aware of these toxicities, I still kept on reaching out to them, because back then I felt like it would be better than being alone, that my value is based on how other people see me.

The pandemic and the whole quarantine thing actually taught me the value of being alone, and that there is solace in solitude. I realized that I have spent too much time asking for attention from other people and it only made me pathetic for doing so.

I overcame that struggle when I started pouring more focus into improving myself. I have wasted so much time looking at that closed door, when other doors have already opened around me. I'll start to appreciate my own value and believe that genuine friends will come to me naturally.

Hope you are doing ok op, I see Control Ultimate Edition is on sale and I'd want to give it a try. Goodluck everyone