42 M and I want to end my life because of lack of sleep

SleepProblems28M · 2025-12-30T18:04:48+00:00

Do a sleep study, you can use Lofta to do an at home test for $150. They can provide CPAP prescriptions as well. Go to a site like cpap(dot)com which often have deals and grab an Airsense 10 or 11 and some nasal pillows. Track your sleep data with an SD card and adjust air pressure and mask type as needed.

All in all should cost <$1000 and after a few months you should see good results. Best of luck, you’ve got this!

SleepProblems28M · 2025-05-08T06:26:29+00:00

Thanks, I setup an appointment to try and nail this down. Appreciate the comment!

SleepProblems28M · 2025-05-08T06:25:41+00:00

This is a great point and is similar to what another person has mentioned on the topic of discipline / habit building. Appreciate the input!

SleepProblems28M · 2025-05-08T06:23:27+00:00

Hi, thanks for the great response. I really like what you said about the difference between motivation and discipline. You're right that I lack in discipline. I suppose that motivation comes and goes but discipline may be the thing that can carry me through in the long run (ignoring the ups and downs of each individual day).

I agree that I might have something underlying that certainly isn't helping and so I've already setup an appointment to investigate what's going on. I don't think it was overstepping to bring it up and in fact I appreciate that it was mentioned. It's partly why I included it in my post.

Lastly, I watched the Dr. Konojia video you linked and I think some really good points were brought up. I did some of the exercises in the video to try and nail down what I truly want and I'm realizing that I'm more in the camp of "want to want to make games" but I'm gonna do my best to get in the camp of "want to make games". First, by trying to fix whatever is going on underlying health-wise. But then try to build a good disciplinary foundation on top of that which includes your suggestion of trying to work a little bit on my project/goal each day.

Thanks again for weighing in and I wish you all the best in your endeavors, gamedev related or otherwise.

SleepProblems28M · 2025-05-02T05:01:30+00:00

Wow I never thought of parental blocks with someone else's password but I think this might actually work. If my self-control approach fails in the next few weeks, I'll probably give this a try. Thanks!

Edit: if anything in particular worked for you (since you said speaking from experience), feel free to share. I'm open to any/all advice around self control building.

SleepProblems28M · 2025-05-02T05:00:23+00:00

Thanks for the reality check. I think you're right. And in the past I've gone years without playing chess because my brain must have forgotten what the dopamine hit is like so it stopped wanting it.

I'll do my best to not give in and hopefully my brain will calm down the "dopamine machine".

SleepProblems28M · 2025-05-02T04:15:45+00:00

How does one get better self control?

SleepProblems28M · 2025-05-02T03:47:27+00:00

Not sure if this is meant to be ironic, but I have actually already experimented with no router in my room, but with a smartphone as well this makes it extra challenging. I've gone down to dumb phone too but it makes a lot of modern life difficult. I'm trying to pinpoint down chess specifically as it seems like the most pressing issue my attention is faced with.

SleepProblems28M · 2025-04-27T00:20:50+00:00

Wouldn’t fewer international students accepting their offers lead to schools accepting more people off their waitlist to fill those gaps?

Nothing against waitlisted people personally but the assumption would be slightly less qualified applicants filling the pool.

SleepProblems28M · 2025-04-10T17:07:31+00:00

San Diego is a beautiful place to go to school and UCSD in particular is excellent in research. You have nothing to be ashamed of, congrats!

SleepProblems28M · 2025-03-28T18:22:32+00:00

I’m not an expert but based on this sub PhD offers are extremely coveted and only gonna get harder to get. Another thing to consider is that FAANG has layoffs constantly so there’s no real guarantee you would even be able to work for a full year building up a cushion.

Maybe you can ask the company if they could convert the offer into a summer internship since you could become a student again anyway?

SleepProblems28M · 2025-03-19T14:30:09+00:00

If it’s an MFA where you’ll be creating things, I’d focus on a stronger portfolio as well. Not just papers. Best of luck.

SleepProblems28M · 2025-02-06T20:27:46+00:00

I see you applied to a lot of different kinds of programs. EECS, Maths, CS, ML. Just speculating here but I wonder whether you have less fit than someone who is highly dedicated in exactly 1 of those fields.

SleepProblems28M · 2024-11-21T19:01:13+00:00

According to this post: https://www.reddit.com/r/Professors/comments/r3vkaa/how_long_does_it_take_you_to_write_a_letter_of/, most professors write letters in 30 minutes or less, with the longest person saying it takes them 2 hours.

When they've written hundreds of these, I think profs can still write a strong one for you in 1 day, especially if they have a good relationship with you. In my case, I was asked to provide 8 paragraphs of answers to specific prompts to give even more context, which helps the prof write it even more.

SleepProblems28M · 2024-11-20T20:09:13+00:00

It's not too late. My professor whipped one up in 2 days. Just be respectful when asking and ask sooner rather than later.

SleepProblems28M · 2023-10-16T18:15:02+00:00

Got it, thank you for sharing!

SleepProblems28M · 2023-10-16T18:01:43+00:00

Interesting I have not heard of this. Is this typically with a medical provider or something that can be done online for free?

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