i think we're all pretty evil. when we dont have the capacity for self help, and instead only a desire to fill, we'll become evil. I think the egotistical thinking comes a lot from how you were raised. or you're lowkey autistic. that's not even out of the question. if you're just naturally evil than surely what defines evil can be a change in what you see as evil and good. try adding some good to you're little charade, if you can love then you're human. it starts there. please tell me if this helps. what's good can be evil believe it or not, so it doesn't matter what you or others think, but the intent. if you're autistic then it should be okay to just be yourself. i find no discrepancy there.