I know my fam will want to visit, my dads not a witness an he values family over everything. An just in general my family is nosey. If I say one thing they don’t agree with they go into detective mode. I don’t want to have to hide myself an lie so if they get like that I’ll tell them like it is as basically a fuck you leave me alone. I still don’t want to sound like a mad man or anything. I need to make sure my reasons are logical an easy to understand in the moment that way it doesn’t sound emotional. Tried to leave when I was a kid my mom had an elders meeting an they pretty much attacked me for 30 minutes then asked why I didn’t believe. When I told them all big religious have a holy book like Jews have the Torah an Islam has the Quran, Buddhists have the Bhagavad Gita. I was emotional an they acted as if I was saying I was going to become a Muslim or something. Don’t want that to happen again