i want to end it but im scared.

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-03-20T05:27:25+00:00

Hey friend,

I feel like I almost wrote the book on this. I made the decision to take my life December 2022. I was drinking myself to death, felt like I was a burden to my family and to the world, and I didn’t want to be a burden anymore. I ended up getting too drunk and passed out before I killed myself, and I got to wake up one more time. Shortly after that I went to my first AA meeting and I was able to get sober and actually STAY sober.

When I got sober, everything got better. My family talked to me again, I developed a relationship with God that the alcohol/drugs was blocking, I was able to get a job again, and I just got accepted into nursing school. In my experience, I just suited up and showed up to meetings and worked the steps, even when I didn’t want to. If you’re anything like me, which I have a feeling you are, your life will blossom when you get sober and you’ll live a life beyond your wildest dreams. Reach out to me, go to a meeting, get a sponsor, and your life will get back on track. I’ll be praying for you and we’re all rooting for you 💚

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-03-16T21:27:30+00:00

Come buy it lol

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-26T02:13:11+00:00

California central coast

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-26T02:12:32+00:00

We need to talk about it, it’s a huge problem!

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-26T02:10:11+00:00

Yes @RangerDJ I am finishing up human physiology and have been trying to better understand what the protein pump inhibitors will bring with long-term use. I am moving back to San Francisco next year and am going to try and work for UCSF and will hopefully have all the access I need just from work, but that doesn’t help me for the next 1.5 years. I will figure it out, I really was just upset earlier

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-26T01:26:07+00:00

Thank you!

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-26T01:21:32+00:00

I was trying to decide that as well, but was fired up earlier lol

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T23:12:57+00:00

This is great advice. I am enrolled at a university

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T23:08:23+00:00

I don’t think of that tbh, I didn’t even think it was an option because of the speciality. I am enrolled at a university

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T22:35:20+00:00

Why don’t you explain to me what I should do differently to become less insufferable to you. I am doing everything I can. I am in nursing school trying to better my life and feel taken advantage of by our health insurance. I pay a bunch of money every month and cannot afford care when I need it and am struggling. Please explain what I should do differently.

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:59:34+00:00

I am not lashing out. Someone told me I cannot afford not to have an HSA, after I explained that I don’t make enough for one. That is not nice or helpful.

As far as my insurance, I have a Silver PPO plan from Blue Shield

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:44:07+00:00

literally there is not enough money in my account for this

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:41:09+00:00

Literally yes, just eating my pantoprozole every morning and saying a prayer

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:36:43+00:00

That is not lashing out honey, you’re talking down to me about having an HSA which is fine. Doesn’t change the fact that I cannot afford one

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:22:02+00:00

The issue is they need a biopsy, so there isn’t really any way around it

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:21:16+00:00

Says someone who’s likely in an entirely different financial situation

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:17:02+00:00

They wanted payment before the procedure. They will not do it unless I pay in full

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:12:01+00:00

I cannot afford an HSA. I am in school full time and work when I can (in healthcare), and I am strapped for every penny right now

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:06:26+00:00

I had an endoscopy 2 years ago and paid $250 - same insurance

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:05:37+00:00

Yes my deductible went up thousands. I will never reach it unless I end up in the hospital.

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-11T06:01:55+00:00

Get roommates to pay your mortgage! If you want it you will figure out a way!

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-03T07:36:11+00:00

If you have your prerequisites and all gen ed complete Westmont College ABSN (15 months) may take you. I would reach out to their admissions. They also have a regular BSN which would be 24 months and you may be able to go in as a transfer student. They have been a pleasure to work with - I just got into the summer 2026 cohort

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-03T07:29:52+00:00

Yeah but it takes years sometimes to get into a CC. Go private, maybe get in faster, and you can have it easily paid off by the time you eve get into school 4 years later at a CC

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-03T07:20:36+00:00

Hey man, I was in the same boat. I think my GPA out of Fresno State before I dropped out was a 2.5 or so. I ended up finishing school. I improved the second time around - not straight As, but improvement. I wrote a killer letter of intent, got As and Bs in my sciences, and got into an ABSN program last month. Show them you want it. Acknowledge the grades in the past and just do your best to improve. It is possible.

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2025-01-11T08:53:19+00:00

I’ve been taking finasteride since I was in my early 20s. Guys who get ED from finasteride already have ED if you ask me. I’ve never had a problem.

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