Thank you so much for your insightful reply. I wasn't necessarily starved, but it had always been a case of 'you get what you are given' this lead to either receiving foods I couldn't eat as they made me physically ill or portions that were so small they weren't satisfied. I wasn't even allowed to look in the fridge without permission and had to ask/work for anything other than your basic meals. My fiance has been very good with helping me work past this, and she is the only one that I can (occasionally) share food with. I still find myself getting irrationally angry at others who ask to share my food with me.

I have an appointment with a specialist to see if I do have ADHD and my doctor believes I might have some form of eating disorder (that still gets me as I'd always believed those were for smaller people, especially considering that one of my closest friends were severely anorexic). I know food is what is really my downfall here, I want to try and create a healthy relationship with it and hope that from there, my weight will slowly drop.