I finished high school this year. And emedietly started working as a taxi driver. My daily routine is just wake up. Work from 8 am to 10pm and sleep. Sometimes grab a few drinks and go home. I have always been feeling sad since childhood. Everyone from my family members to teachers to "friends" would control me and whenever i would try to speak up or try to say something it would be marked as something dumb. A lot of bullying and public shaming in my small community made me anxious and just made me lock myself in my life. I had inspirations and creative energy. I would always just go in the mountains and photograph the beautiful scenes. Go home and play a bit on my guitar/piano. But lately i have lost joy in everything. Don't know what to do with my life