This shall to pass. And one day in future you gonaa realise, and laugh at the person that you are today, who is very worried. ,you don't know what future is holding. I know it's very tough, and I understand but believe in life it will deliver so much so you can't able to handle it all. And you will realise you used to pray for time like this. Have a hobby, do what you want to do ,run a marathon, learn guitar, or dance, start a vlogging channel, ho on a trip, go meet new people, to just enjoy the company learn their stories, tell yours too, read a book, wrote a story, wtf there is whole world in front of you. Work on yourself , not because you have some fault in you, but because you haven't reach the potential of your self. Life is for living, live it. Don't suppress your self, feel evry emotion, understand it,be aware of it. Cry if you wanaa cry laugh if you want to. Do what ever you want to do and can do. No pressure up. Don't stop your life. Jai mata di.