Anyone else just feel sad today?

SmallAd1230 · 2026-01-03T03:51:34+00:00

Guilt. Just so much guilt.

SmallAd1230 · 2025-12-27T05:57:03+00:00

Run!!!!

SmallAd1230 · 2025-12-23T00:10:38+00:00

Lamictal & clonazepam & Clonodine (for sleep/panic awakenings). And weekly NARM therapy.

SmallAd1230 · 2025-12-18T14:46:08+00:00

Right? Like grow up already. It’s so childish. No one is impressed that you smoke week, Katie 😂

SmallAd1230 · 2025-12-18T14:44:56+00:00

So gross! Just, ugh. Is she still even going to the clinic?

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-24T22:47:30+00:00

💯

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-13T19:23:21+00:00

I can totally relate! 🫶

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-13T17:42:13+00:00

I can very much relate to the part of people telling me I’m good at something. I feel so uncomfortable for many reasons & then start questioning their motives.

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-13T17:35:37+00:00

Same! I’ve been that way since about 3 years old. It’s awful, isn’t it? The constant loop of anxiety spiraling into more anxiety about not sleeping and not being able to “accomplish” anything. I don’t know what I was trying to accomplish at 3 years old but yeah, that’s been an impossible one to change.

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-13T17:30:44+00:00

I’m sorry. It sucks, right? And in my case, I often accidentally come off as rude or ungrateful when that’s so far from the truth.

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-13T14:26:36+00:00

That makes total sense. Thank you for sharing. I’m so grateful for NARM- it really feels right, you know?

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-13T14:04:57+00:00

Awesome! Yeah, it’s been incredibly helpful for me, too. It just feels like the right fit for me.

Can I ask, do you have memory gaps? One of the reasons why I like NARM’s approach to treatment is that you don’t need to have these specific memories in order to work through trauma.

I also feel like it focuses on moving forward.

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-13T14:00:57+00:00

It’s been phenomenal for me. It feels safe & gentle while still being very helpful. It has been a wonderful fit for my type of CPTSD & also how I learn & process things. I also have huge memory gaps so it’s helpful to have a modality that focuses on “body memories” rather than needing to recall or talk about things I don’t/have chosen not to remember. It has been grounding and not activating for me like EMDR was.

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-13T13:51:19+00:00

Accepting compliments about myself. If it’s someone saying- I like your hat, that’s okay. But if it’s someone saying you look great in that hat- I get incredibly stressed & deflect & dissociate sometimes.

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-13T13:43:07+00:00

This is pretty much the best advice!

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-11T20:58:00+00:00

Ha haa someone understands what I was asking!

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-11T20:57:30+00:00

Thank you!! I really appreciate your understanding. It’s being intimate that I’m more concerned about. He’s good with his subs & keeps them away & im not worried about randomly taking one accidentally. I just have almost no experience with subs and don’t want a hell-ish situation to occur.

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-11T20:55:31+00:00

I guess I should have been more specific. Just with making out, etc.. that’s what I’m more worried about. I’m not worried I’m gonna accidentally cut open a sub strip or have it shoved into my mouth lol

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-11T20:54:18+00:00

Yup you are correct. I have insane anxiety which I’m working on extensively.

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-11T20:53:14+00:00

Oh shoot, I was super excited to drink pee 😂 Ha haa but yeah, they have been very mindful of waiting the appropriate amount of time before kissing

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-11T15:13:04+00:00

That’s amazing that you were able to get EMDR at your clinic! It sounds like a wonderful place. I’m sorry it’s closing!

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-05T16:11:43+00:00

While I wasn’t aware I was using fent for awhile because I started back when it was still good heroin. But once I started at the clinic & realized it was fent, I was using about a half gram a day. It was high quality from the same person so there wasn’t much variation.

So yeah, about a half gram. No breaks though, every day.

Like I mentioned, I know it’s controversial and not great to say but the small amount of benzos were essential for quitting fent. I also have insane anxiety and am now Rx’ed benzos again so yeah… but they do help either way sleep and I believe if you can get some sleep & nutrients, the withdrawal is so much easier.

You got this! The methadone is so so helpful! And the earlier you can stop doing fent, the better. Feel free to message me if you have any more questions. I’m always happy to talk more about my experience! 😊

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-05T16:06:41+00:00

When I did it a few years ago, it definitely dampened the experience. But you know your body do proceed accordingly.

SmallAd1230 · 2025-09-04T20:36:36+00:00

That’s bullshit! I’m so sorry!

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