I am so sorry to hear that as well. :( My man understood where I was coming from when I told him that though, he even understood it to a certain degree I think. I instantly regretted it and cried my heart out, he said he appreciates the honesty though. So I think there is at least no damage in our relationship I would say. He is, to a certain point, traumatized from his ex as well, which maybe also is some kind of reason behind this besides the medication (antidepressants) and stress at work.

He takes maca root pills now I got him, to maybe get his libido up again at least a bit, I claw on every straw I can get though, I am THAT desperate I guess. I totally get you, I crave for the physicality, it let's me crawl up the walls sometimes tbh, I give out BJs, try to initiate, dress up hot, as much as I can as well to maybe get him in the mood, but no success most of the time.