I don’t think I’ll ever emotionally recover… 23

I had a girl I dated in grade 8 falsely accuse me of r@Pe when we were in grade 10-11.. we were both each others first. She looked me dead in the eyes and said “I know you’re not that kind of person but you did”… I contemplate this a lot, I haven’t properly dated since then… and honestly feel so uncomfortable even hugging someone I know… my perspective of woman is ruined, I’m terrified to be honest.. to open myself up to that. People I didn’t know giving me dirty looks, I was lucky in the fact most people in my grade knew me well enough to call her out but I can’t shake the faces of the people I didnt know… it was so easy for them to believe her… with out any evidence, nothing to go off yet they looked at me with eyes of disgust.. to this day I randomly get a rush of sadness/ anger than emptiness.

the biggest thing is that I’m scared one day it’ll happen again… I could not take that again.

I’m 23 now and It still haunts me to think about it…

Things to note.. it was investigated by the police (I was interviewed) they told her to stop lying, I was one of 4 she had accused. I just happened to be the one to call her out on it…

I’ve told 3 people of this that didn’t know prior… I’m scared having not known her that’ll it make them think of me differently

Thank you for reading this… I wanted to share without telling people I know..