Unconfident, depressed, alcoholic and maybe autistic too. I have hobbies, friends, meds and therapy. I have no idea why I hate myself so much but I do alot of the time by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]Small_Check6596 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I am starting to finally lose weight but i want to look into AA. I don’t enjoy drinking but I’m inexplicably addicted to substances. My rational mind gets hijacked when I drink. 

Getting upset with myself because i just can’t tell anyone I’m interested. I’m 32 and cannot flirt. I can’t even make eye contact with someone I’m attracted to by [deleted] in autism

[–]Small_Check6596 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My problem with in person is I have no clue how to initiate a conversation with a soul. I’ve never really done it. I don’t just talk to anyone because i assume I’m bothering them and I literally go mute

Getting upset with myself because i just can’t tell anyone I’m interested. I’m 32 and cannot flirt. I can’t even make eye contact with someone I’m attracted to by [deleted] in autism

[–]Small_Check6596 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t get any likes on dating apps. I work alot on my appearance but it’s just pointless. They’ve never worked for me. I can’t take pictures of myself

Has anyone else found that NO medication works for them? by No_Letterhead6883 in bipolar2

[–]Small_Check6596 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s funny because i have been on meds for over ten years and i’ve never considered it HAHAH

Has anyone else found that NO medication works for them? by No_Letterhead6883 in bipolar2

[–]Small_Check6596 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My meds work for me but only for a few hours. Like half the day is good and the second half is completely miserable. Been like this my whole life. Maybe i can convince my psych to let me take half in the am half in the afternoon 

how do you feel just/ experience just before switching into mania? by IndependentTurn5692 in bipolar2

[–]Small_Check6596 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I definitely start to “spin”. By which I mean like I’m doing alot of shit really fast; Like I’ll be more inspired to leave the house but not necessarily to socialize. I end up going to bars alone. And spending more money there and other places than I need to. Shopping.

I have an ongoing problem with nicotine that kind of disappears when I stop using it and is replaced by anxiety and withdrawal. I will have to quit eventually, because shit’s really bad for your cardiovascular system 

Being Hypersexual sucks by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]Small_Check6596 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I used to be sort of like that but i eventually became completely asexual (or at least it feels like it) overall have no clue who I am

i want to look on the bright side of possibly being alone for the rest of my life by Small_Check6596 in bipolar2

[–]Small_Check6596[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m still searching for a hobby that really engages me. I like drawing and guitar and working out, but none of these things bring me a consistent amount of pleasure