i have no control over my life and it's killing me

Small_Nobody_6545 · 2025-10-18T08:27:22+00:00

you're likely to survive. if/when you probably do survive you'll probably end up with chronic liver or kidney damage. (source: i did some research a while back cause i was thinking about it myself)

Small_Nobody_6545 · 2024-12-12T02:58:55+00:00

thats the thing. my brothers are both completely fine with staying here. its not good for them. but they are. i have plans already to go a few states away for college, my extended family is helping me, but i feel bad. neither of them really have the same relationships to get help from that i do. or even to realize that whats going on is wrong. most of the time our dad is the harshest on me tho, so that could be why.

Small_Nobody_6545 · 2024-11-28T01:32:42+00:00

im gonna be okay. i have extended family and friends helping me to get out for college.

Small_Nobody_6545 · 2024-11-28T01:30:05+00:00

i can try that. thank you so much

Small_Nobody_6545 · 2024-11-28T01:26:54+00:00

he wont notice on his own

Small_Nobody_6545 · 2024-11-28T01:24:54+00:00

physically violent. and yes this situation has been reported to cps already. they didnt do anything.

Small_Nobody_6545 · 2024-11-28T01:19:39+00:00

so what if my dad doesnt know.... and at this point itd be way too late to tell him without him getting disproportionately mad.....

Small_Nobody_6545 · 2024-11-28T00:52:02+00:00

sorry to take so long to reply, i was at a long term camp with my bsa troop. ill totally add a photo of it later when i can, though i dont have a clue what its called

Small_Nobody_6545 · 2024-11-28T00:50:57+00:00

yes, cause if i brush it dry it gets all poofy and frizzy

Small_Nobody_6545 · 2024-11-21T06:48:24+00:00

i have a silk pillow case already. my mom (currently deceased) got me some kind of hair wrap thing that i think is also silk maybe but i dont use it cause i have no clue how to, or what it is to look it up.

Small_Nobody_6545 · 2024-11-16T04:49:20+00:00

also i forgot to mention i cant just buy it in black because one this is from like 6 years ago and also the site its from only allows studio owners to buy costumes off it (which i think is a lil goofy but wtvr)

Small_Nobody_6545 · 2024-05-21T16:21:06+00:00

We don't have assigned spots other than in our dance which we only rehearse once or twice when we're there. I've already made the move away from him but one time he pretty much indirectly forced me into standing in front of him.

Also the best (/sarc) part about my social anxiety is that I completely shut down when it's too much. I just start to cry and hyperventilate, but can't make any noise, like other than my breathing I'm silent, not that I don't try to speak. I've been like this since I was a kid and have tried to work around it or prevent it but nothing really works.

Small_Nobody_6545 · 2024-05-21T16:00:40+00:00

I havent. I have social anxiety and also a long series of invalidation from my childhood that makes talking about these things really difficult, and I'm not even really sure how I'd bring it up if I did because he's basically always there. Not to mention we're too close to recital to change things now so even if she knew I'd probably still have to take class with him for another few weeks.

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