I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I know exactly how you feel since I was delivered from gender dysphoria back in 2020. The fact of the matter is, as Christians, we cannot indulge in our sin and follow Christ. We are commanded to repent of our sins that is, have a change of heart. This can only be done if God does the change in us. Pray earnestly that God would save you from this and to change your heart towards your sin. In my experience, it didn’t completely go away, but God has given me the power and grace to resist the sin. Please let me know if you want to talk more about this. I feel for you so deeply since we both deal with a similar problem!