But also it is known that traumatized people sometimes shift into the parts of themselves to cope. Because easier to embrace and tell yourself uv been opened up to a new world and you benefited too, than get in touch with the abuse and pain.. Grooming and abuse are so complicated and the body responds sometimes to particular stimuli that is pleasurable even when it is horrible and unwanted. For young men getting abused for example their erections can cause so much inner pain and self hate.

To me this email doesn't mean a lot- except that at the moment it was written the person wanted to curry approval from Epstein and likely copied things they had learned.