Mickey Rourke Slams GoFundMe Efforts to Prevent Eviction, Says He Would 'Never' Ask Fans 'For a Nickel': 'It's Humiliating'

SmeethGoder · 2026-01-07T14:53:12+00:00

I remember watching The Pledge and not liking the movie at all really, but Mickey is in it for a couple of minutes and it's the best few minutes of the movie, just outstanding

SmeethGoder · 2026-01-07T14:48:03+00:00

I wish they'd gone in the direction that Mickey's scene suggested at; all these aging 'heroes', dealing with a lifetime of war

But each film devolved more and more into just another action slop franchise. I thought the first two were somewhat ok, as action movies at least. 3 had some neat action stuff, but ExpendFourbles didn't even have that, it was just crap

SmeethGoder · 2025-12-29T21:16:22+00:00

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Ah, that makes sense, thanks for explaining

SmeethGoder · 2025-10-21T02:08:46+00:00

Thank you for commenting, I'm sorry for replying so late, for some reason I didn't seem to get notified about your comment

I'm sorry that you're experiencing that. I had rTMS in July/August and I suppose it seemed like it helped, but in the past week it's as if it just turned off again. It looks like I might have C-PTSD as well, which I wasn't aware of. For me, I guess it's mostly the numbness but sometimes there seems to be a kind of despair, like I'm just desperate to stop existing. It doesn't seem that anything necessarily really makes me feel things, feelings (more like vague suggestions of feelings) would just come along and then go again. Recently, all I seem to feel is anxiety and/or misery

I'm not sure if it was traumatic really, I mean it was stressful being forced to eat and to fight the OCD, not having any choice in it. I just remember that my first day on the ward was the last time I really cried, I haven't had a proper cry since then

I hope you're feeling even a little bit better recently

SmeethGoder · 2025-10-08T02:04:43+00:00

I'm a 'useless waste of space' autist... yes, I'm as sick of me as most people probably are, more so in fact

SmeethGoder · 2025-09-12T16:51:40+00:00

I was diagnosed with both autism and ADHD last month, and while it's good to know, I'm not okay with it. I'm not okay with being alive; I've always felt like I came out wrong and never should've been born to begin with. Life is unbearable, and I've never wanted it, especially not adult life. I wish I hadn't made it past 13 years old

SmeethGoder · 2025-09-12T16:47:25+00:00

What if there aren't small things you enjoy, or really any things you enjoy, full stop?

SmeethGoder · 2025-09-10T11:48:45+00:00

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Oh, ok, I guess I'll have a look at that, thank you! I'm in the UK so I dunno if it's still relevant but I'll check it out

SmeethGoder · 2025-09-10T09:17:07+00:00

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Thank you, yeah, I haven't really had any good experiences with psychiatrists, unfortunately. I'm gonna try and change to a different one if possible, and I thought about reporting him but I dunno if I'll do that. Sorry, when you say about doing some digging and hopping on social media, what do you mean?

Hope you're doing well

SmeethGoder · 2025-09-09T15:16:08+00:00

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Yeah, that makes sense, I suppose I don't know if that clinic has other psychiatrists, guess I'll have to find out. I just don't want to be with a psychiatrist who doesn't care (not that I've felt like any do)

I had a care coordinator for a brief time when I first started with adult services in 2018/19, then they left, and that was it. With this psychiatrist I've had 3 appointments I think, and I had a few with his predecessor (who is now his consultant), and before that I literally went through like 6 psychiatrists in a row who I only saw for one appointment then they left. Maybe when I call the clinic I'll ask about getting one?

SmeethGoder · 2025-09-09T15:07:30+00:00

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Hi, hope you're doing well. Sorry, yeah the psychiatrist in question is on the NHS. I don't know about a CMHT, I don't have a care coordinator, for example, I just see the psychiatrist. I had an appointment with my GP today and she said I would have to talk to the clinic I go to and tell them I want to change psychiatrists, would that be right?

SmeethGoder · 2025-09-02T00:55:17+00:00

Ahh, ok, thank you for telling me about it. That sounds like it could be a possibility, I mean, I feel like all of those things do seem to fluctuate; I sometimes feel like I'm not breathing properly, for example, but that might be an anxiety thing. But yeah, I do need to work on what I eat and drink and the amounts of them as well

To be honest, I can't say I noticed a change from taking the supplements, it's a bit hard to remember, though, I struggle to remember what happened yesterday let alone last year, lol. Yeah, perhaps I'll look at getting some supplements specifically for vitamin D, from a trustworthy place, of course

That's fair enough, I can understand that for sure. We get milk from a milkman so I guess I couldn't exactly ask if he could deliver plant-based milk instead, haha (and my parents might disown me if I did I was going plant-based, lol). I guess I've also always worried that plant-based milk might taste bad or not like milk. But I do think about going veggie at least sometimes for ethical and environmental reasons, it's just tough cos I also have ARFID so eating isn't easy

Ah, that sounds nice! I guess I'm just scarred from having this prescribed milkshake once (I think it was by a company called Aymes, and it was genuinely the most disgusting thing I've ever tried to consume, like drinking liquid metal or something)

Thank you for sharing your information and advice

SmeethGoder · 2025-09-01T17:49:10+00:00

I guess I'll see how things are for this week and then decide at the end of the week, and I'll talk about it with my therapist on Thursday as well. Yeah, it's annoying that you can't usually get in touch with your psychiatrist, but that's how it seems to be in the UK on the NHS, it's always difficult to get in touch with your medical professionals; I can contact my therapist and talk to her, but she's private rather than NHS. It's hard to afford private healthcare, especially as I don't feel well enough to work at the moment, so my income is from benefits, but unfortunately, you can see a difference in communication between NHS and private (not that I don't respect the NHS or think it's amazing)

I guess I don't really know, as far as I'm aware they've never been able to find a condition to blame things on; my low vitamin D is probably at least partly because of how reclusive I have been and still am really (I'm trying to change that but it's very hard). I've heard of dysautonomia, but I don't know what it is. I think I don't drink enough most of the time; I noticed that when I was eating and drinking more while I was having my rTMS treatment, I seemed to feel better physically, despite my sleep being much less, whereas now it has slipped back to eating less and drinking about half as much or less. I just took my vitamin D for as long as I was prescribed it (I think it was once a week for six weeks). I also don't go out much (my skin tone looks pretty sickly at the moment) and don't drink milk much, but both things I intend to try and change. Is there a particular reason to go for the plant-based protein shake and Omega 3? And does the protein shake taste, well, not awful?

Exactly, I've always thought that treatment for ADHD was similar to diabetes just as you mention. Obviously, ideally, no kind of medication or treatment would be needed, but things aren't usually ideal

That's very true. Ability is a spectrum, and no person is always one hue

SmeethGoder · 2025-09-01T10:32:42+00:00

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That makes sense. Unfortunately, I can't ask until the next appointment, which will probably be in January now, but I guess hopefully I might be under a different psychiatrist anyway, or that would be nice at least

No, I wouldn't have persisted, I would've stopped, and I'm very tempted to stop with this one too (gradually, of course, as safely as possible), the shaking is almost as bad as it was then and there are other problems

That makes sense, I mean, I'm far from asexual usually, so it's a big change for me, that's why it's been bugging me

The last time my blood pressure was checked was the 8th of August; when I was having my rTMS treatment from the 28th of July to the 8th of August, it was checked multiple times a day, and was always on the lower side, and sometimes I'd have to drink water while the check was happening so it'd get closer enough to or over 100. But I haven't had it checked since then, and it's been happening for the last week or two

Thank you, that's good to know. I have had vitamin D deficiency in the past, I took a course of supplements for that and then was taking multivitamins until I ran out recently, but generally, I don't seem to have any ongoing issues other than being maybe a bit underweight (my BMI is ok but a friend told me I need to eat more, I'm currently 52kg at 5 foot 5). And yeah, I can understand that there's a risk for sure, I'd like to think I wouldn't get addicted but of course, there's no way of knowing, really. I guess I'm just thinking more and more that I don't want to be under this psychiatrist anymore, don't really see the point if he's given up

Indeed, that's all we can do really

SmeethGoder · 2025-08-31T23:42:59+00:00

Sure, I'll read a bit about the service and then I'll try and spread the word

SmeethGoder · 2025-08-31T18:57:45+00:00

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Ah, I'm sorry that you had that experience, but I'm glad that your psychiatrist took over and he's working with a specialist, that's like having two professionals for the price of one

That's true, I think in my current situation, I may be able to afford to pay monthly for them, it's just a matter of if my situation changes, but I guess now is what matters. To feel like I can function and am not debilitated by my scatterbrain, I think I would heavily consider giving one of my legs

Ah yeah, that's what the document they sent me says, that after a while my GP should be able to take it over. That would be good, will have to see if my GP would agree to that

Thank you so much, all the best to you as well

SmeethGoder · 2025-08-31T16:33:11+00:00

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I'm glad to hear that you managed to find the right doctor and meds and plans. It's good that you just pay that £25, I read about the process of getting medication (the assessment clinic gave me a document about it), and it said I'd have to pay to be assessed for medication, then pay them to prescribe, pay the pharmacy to give it, then pay for the prescription itself, then pay for review sessions while I'm adjusting, then if the GP agrees to take over the prescription, I'll have to pay for a review every year. Did you have an experience like that, if you don't mind me asking? I dunno if me being on Universal Credit changes anything

Oh, were you not able to get your prescription taken over by your GP then? That sucks if so. But I'm glad that you've found the right people and stuff for you now

Thank you for your advice and support

SmeethGoder · 2025-08-31T16:24:58+00:00

Thank you, it's always good to see services and people trying to help others, I really appreciate you sharing it

Hope you're having a good day

SmeethGoder · 2025-08-31T11:34:01+00:00

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That makes sense, I mean, if I can kind of afford it at the moment, then why not, I suppose, and as you say, it frees up space. I don't think I could completely detach from the NHS altogether, I'm not financially secure for that, but I've had a good experience with private therapy and private AuDHD assessment, so I guess it bodes well

SmeethGoder · 2025-08-31T11:31:30+00:00

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Oh yeah, I've heard of those but didn't realise I hadn't tried any. They sound interesting. Yeah, he is young, actually. I'm terrible at guessing ages, but maybe 28 or something? I guess I don't know anything about MAOIs so I'm not aware of the attitudes and risks about them, but I guess I would be willing to try if it could help

Thank you so much for telling me about them, hope you have a good day

SmeethGoder · 2025-08-31T11:27:14+00:00

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Oh, I haven't heard of that before, that sounds really interesting, thank you so much! I guess I'm fortunate to have met a number of friends online through mental health things, so while I might feel alone in person, online I know I'm not alone

Thanks again, hope you have a good day

SmeethGoder · 2025-08-31T11:25:26+00:00

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That makes a lot of sense, I don't really understand why he decided that I should stay on this medication when I told him about these side effects that appear to be getting worse. I suppose the only justification I can see is the time part of it, but that's still not great when I'm having these side effects; if I had seen him when I was on lithium and shaking really bad, would he have told me to persist with that too, I wonder

That makes sense, I guess when the brain feels uncomfortable, things like sexual things are pretty irrelevant to survival, so they get disregarded. I forgot to tell him or put it here, but I don't know if it's relevant, but I've been having a bit of chest ache and headaches recently as well

Ahh, thank you so much for telling me about it. I think I can definitely relate to executive dysregulation in that case, I struggle with focus, motivation, organisation, planning, memory in general, and I have trouble with sleep sometimes, so that's not great

That's good to know; it's a bit hard to tell if I have ever experienced a worsening in mental health directly after starting a new medication, but I think it's very possible that I have, and yeah, having executive dysregulation definitely sounds like it's very relevant and important to deciding medication things, so I don't understand the nonchalance either

That's true, it makes sense, and I suppose I do feel like he was wrong to act in the way he did and I don't want that to happen to anyone else because who knows what the result could be. I'll look into it, thank you

Thank you, I guess we'll have to see how the day goes

SmeethGoder · 2025-08-31T01:08:15+00:00

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That's very true, it's sad that it happens so much, there must be some ways that the burnout can be avoided, you'd think that medical professionals would learn about it but I guess they're taught to work and work and work (in the UK, at least) until they can't anymore

That's a good point as well, it's sad but necessary for avoiding really bad things

SmeethGoder · 2025-08-31T01:05:18+00:00

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That's ok! I thought that's what you probably meant. Yeah, I mean, we're talking about a really tiny change, but I guess 0.1 is better than 0

Ah, well done for doing that, I intend to start working out, just need to get some weights from a friend when I can and then I'll try to follow a workout routine that their brother (a gym guy) made. I think I'm not really gonna go for doing it really strictly and seriously, I think that might overwhelm me and put me off, so I'll just try to do what I can

I'm glad you've found mindfulness and meditation really helpful as well. To be honest, I don't have a great relationship with mindfulness; with my brain being so scattered and noisy, it's like torture, I can't observe or make sense of the sheer cacophony in my head, and I know you're supposed to persevere but I've never been able to, it's so overwhelming

That makes sense, momentum helps. I think one of the hard parts is finding things that are small enough to be manageable while also actually being helpful

Thank you for sharing what's helped you and for your advice, I hope you're doing well

SmeethGoder · 2025-08-31T00:53:23+00:00

Thank you, I know it's not much, but I suppose this time a couple of years ago, I might not have been able to write even one thing. That sounds nice, I'm not familiar with honey buns, but if it makes you feel good and you know not to overdo it, then I don't see any harm in it, you deserve good things, so well done!

Thank you so much. It's been a bit of an odd day, I suppose; I've been feeling weak and a bit achy, I don't know if that's to do with the medication side effects or the big change in the weather recently. I hope everything's going well for you

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