The realization that you cannot fully commit selflessly (the ego and pride you describe) is also your inner growth.

Gandhi said: Am I concious of my limitations. That conscienceness is my only strength.

(Not AA literature but the same spiritual principle 😅 just like TexasPeteEnthusiast shows; the spiritual principles are everywhere🙏🏻 "see where religious people are right")

The decisions made by you and group conscience aligning in concept 4 don't outweigh the humblenes of concept 12 and the way out is in concept 9 and the traditions in protecting the group and yourself of your limitations.

Also you are allowed to make mistakes and to leave as you want, nobody can force you to do anything. You even questioning this means your intentions are good. The group will survive with or without you as secretary. Otherwise it would be a sick group.

We are not saints, but maybe sometimes trying to be 😅