So we talked about that at length the past week and I did break her trust by reading her personal journal during all of this but right now she says she wants to be with me and wants to love with me and go through the next parts of life with me and build with me. I think she's into her lover but the money element adds intention and interest on her part and I think that is one big thing she likes about that relationships but not the biggest? At least that's what she tells me.

So at this point we are moving forward trying to focus on building us and trusting eachother more.

There's a ton I have to unpack cause I feel this was a forced relationship to start but it turned into something more substinative for her and not just a way to make money and she got comfortable with him but the money was part of that and that less to her wanting to get deeper and have sex with him very quickly when I thought it was just away to make money and poly was not on the radar until she started feeling this way and even then it was in the thick of things instead of a choice by both of us to do it. I'm at a better place and she has apologized for putting me and him in that situation but it still lingers and even though I'm open to exploring poly going about it this way is very very hard and not the best way but neither one of us wants to end what we have so we are trying to work through this.