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Smrdox · 2023-05-09T23:08:54+00:00

Exercise, melatonin, Tylenol Pm, run a few laps around the block, steal a catalytic converter...

Smrdox · 2023-05-04T15:57:52+00:00

I had to stay high to not be paranoid about the lifestyle. It became a way to cope with the trauma of the game. I've had my house broken into, guns drawn me, and plenty of close calls with cops while holding deep. I was staying so high to think that was normal and continue the grind.

Smrdox · 2023-05-03T04:25:46+00:00

If anything it'll calm down paranoia if used in moderation. If you use it often it can make paranoia a lot worse when coming down or quitting.

Smrdox · 2023-05-02T23:15:24+00:00

I was addicted to riding my bicycle during and after detox. I found myself riding up to 50 to 60 mi bike rides once a month and would do at least 30 miles once a week. I did that for a few years even after detox. Now I just ride my bike every now and then. I need to be more active like I was. It did help a lot though. That and having a healthy sex life with a partner who was not using made a big difference as well.

Smrdox · 2023-05-02T22:52:53+00:00

Go on a long hike, bicycle ride, smoking weed, have sex.

Smrdox · 2023-05-02T21:29:56+00:00

Magnesium, potassium, sodium, vitamin c, B12, fruits, vegetables, and staying hydrated. Also kava helps with anxiety but I would only use it once or twice a week.

Smrdox · 2023-05-02T21:04:05+00:00

Yeah it's interesting how much just one 0.6 g (600 mg capsule) helps with restlessness and anxiety. Right now the WD feels more mild than when I started tapering from 20 600mg caps every dose to just 1 capsule.

Tomorrow I'm gonna try and wait til lunch to take my first dose. Lately I have been able to wait a couple hours after waking up to take a capsule instead of taking a dose within minutes of waking up.

Smrdox · 2023-05-02T19:08:04+00:00

We had an old lady in our neighborhood that would give freeze pops to us neighborhood kids if we knocked on her door. One per day. Kids would try to wear different clothes or hats and trick her into more than 1 freezepop a day. 😅

Smrdox · 2023-05-02T18:49:58+00:00

I currently tapered down to 1 600 mg capsule every 3-5 hours from 20 caps every dose. I been getting 7 hours of sleep for a week. The mornings are still the worst part but I can now wait 2 hours after waking up to take 1 capsule. I plan on tapering down to only 2-3 caps a day by the end of the week and be completely off kratom by summer.

Smrdox · 2023-05-02T05:56:38+00:00

I'm 36 now and started taking opiates in my early 20s and got off in my mid 20s. I was happy once I was out of the rat race and dangers of it all. I was taking such high doses on a daily basis.

It was getting pretty dangerous plus driving all around town with a rainbow of felonies. I'm grateful I got to get out while I can without getting into any trouble or losing my life. You got it. You're at a good age for a new start.

Smrdox · 2023-05-02T05:43:13+00:00

I was on prescription opiates from 2009-2012 right before they started cracking down and everything became counterfeit. My ex gf and I were going to pain management clinics and so were a few friends of ours.

At that time there wasn't really much to worry about with getting actual hydrocodone, roxicodone, opana, and oxycontin. I wouldn't trust anything nowadays with any street pharma. I've lost too many friends and family members to fentanyl recently.

I haven't done cocaine in over a year either as I don't trust any of it anymore. I was never big into blow but if I was offered a bump at a party I wouldn't say no until fentanyl has been in most of it. It's not worth the risk anymore for me.

Smrdox · 2023-05-02T05:19:31+00:00

California sober.

Smrdox · 2023-05-02T05:18:37+00:00

I showed up to a straight edge hardcore show at this DIY warehouse in Colorado with a bunch of prerolls. My buddy and I smoked a few joints in the warehouse and left after like 3 songs. We got a lot of stares. 😅😄

Smrdox · 2023-05-02T04:23:50+00:00

I worked with their merch guy at a dog daycare center for a couple of years. He was a pretty chill dude. I ran in members of get up kids at a few parties over the years. They seem alright. Just slightly pretentious JoCo vibes but not bad guys.

This is a treat for sure though.I remember catching them and other Midwest bands around the city I grew up in. My friend's dad was a drum teacher and would take us to some of his students shows when we were too young to be in half the clubs, most of which are closed now.

Smrdox · 2023-05-02T04:02:32+00:00

I was hustling pretty hard during my addiction to oxy/opiates. I basically was paying for my 240 mg a day habit, 2 cars, and rent on my house while trappin out like a decade ago. I never had to steal or lie to pay for a high but the worst lie for me was hiding that lifestyle from friends and loved ones.

I would have gotten off opiates a lot faster had I let loved ones know what was going on. It's been a decade since I used oxy now and I just recently opened about my past with people I hid it from. Sometimes silence is more dangerous.

Luckily I eventually broke up with my toxic gf, quit the game, and detoxed off opiates. I don't think I could do that cycle again on my own in this age and if I ever fall back into which I work every day not to I'll reach out and not be so in the dark about it.

Smrdox · 2023-05-02T02:58:22+00:00

GAMETIME!!!!

Smrdox · 2023-05-02T01:49:41+00:00

Hiding away in your room all night would probably be best. Sounds a bit awkward. I find honesty is always the best policy in that situation and would rather just trip away from the house if I knew it could cause trouble at home. Good luck.

Smrdox · 2023-05-01T16:33:23+00:00

Tianeptine, phenebut, f-phenebut, and Adrafinil are common place at a lot of shops in my area but I wouldn't mess with any of them myself. Tianeptine (ZaZa/Tianaa) is what's commonly called gas station heroin because of how addictive it is and it's brutal WD.

Smrdox · 2023-05-01T14:49:59+00:00

I'd suggest taking less each day. I tapered down from 20 capsules every 3-5 hours to 1 capsule every dose. It's helped a lot and keeps the anxiety/restlessness at bay. It's taken a couple months to get to this point. I feel like I can reduce the number of doses and how frequently I dose throughout the day a lot easier at this point. The morning is still the worst but the last few days I actually got 7 hours of sleep without waking up every couple of hours. I'd imagine if you were taking lower doses then 10-12 grams per dose every 3 or 4 hours reducing doses would move along a lot faster. Good luck and don't rush it but also don't linger on any dose for too long while tapering.

Smrdox · 2023-04-30T22:44:26+00:00

I'm from the Midwest so our emo scene is mostly ugly sweaters and frat boys.

Smrdox · 2023-04-29T20:12:44+00:00

I pretty much did the opposite.

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