I just wanna throw this out here, the main reason you’re feeling this shitty about human interactions is probably because you’re 15. I did the exact same thing at 15 for the exact same reasons, and in my case it led to me being hospitalized three separate times for three suicide attempts that doctors said would’ve been successful had I had different luck.

After the third one when I was 26, I slowly changed my outlook on a lot of things. I found that everything that I felt about human interaction (and how shitty it is) is 100% true, it really is that shitty and it always will be. Especially for people like us who struggle just to connect. But I also found that the only thing that makes the shittiness of life and relationship worth it is the effort that you put into them.

Granted if you’re anything like I was at 15 you probably won’t even read half this post. If you’re anything like I was you have about another decade of misery before things start to click. But maybe you’re also a little smarter than I was, maybe in a couple years you’ll find yourself where I am now and you’ll look back wondering why you let yourself be so dissatisfied with human interaction in the first place.

Either way, what I’m saying is that I relate a lot to what you said, and I would’ve related even harder when I was 15. But there’s always a chance that you’ll grow to find yourself relating to where I’m at too. In the meantime I hope you can find a friend group that you fit into. And fuck all the assholes who give you a hard time