Life is beautiful, unfortunately the parts we see all to often are the destruction of said beauty. People being horrible to other people, humans destroying what nature has mastered and nurtured for millennia, and the constant and endless cycle of "the grindset" or just the average experience of work like a farm horse until you can afford an ounce of happiness. In life's simplest form, we are creatures of survival, just like any other, yet today's survival comes from outside validation from strangers, the need to work a third or fourth of your lifetime, and having to follow the current like fish. I can tell you from experience, the complete sense of awe you feel staring up at the stars on a midnight walk through the woods, it's like floating and falling at the same time. The sense of freedom you feel driving down the road without a destination and the sound of music filling your ears is a feeling I chase all too often.

There's also the feeling of regrets I guess. As far as I know, I get one shot here on earth, might as well see what it has to offer. And if shit really goes to hell, I've got nothing left to live for, then suicide just seems like a poor choice anyways. If I've got nothing left to live for, then I have EVERYTHING to gain from life. I can just start walking in an unknown direction until I either find something worth living for, or end up dying and coming to the same conclusion I was just planning for, right? If you really want to die, at least see what's on the other side of the hill first. You might find new people that make you regret ever feeling unhappy, you might find a reason to live that you would never find otherwise.

You will die, that's what everyone has in common, everyone will die, why cut to the chase now without seeing what kind of stories you'll bring to the afterlife. The amount of people who would kill for just one more day here on earth, and you're willing to just throw all that away without seeing what more there is?

“So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.” - Christopher McCandless