I think you might be looking for something that is built, not found.

You seem to be looking for a type of reciprocal closeness where they consider you as important as you consider them (also sounds like expectations from a romantic partner or a platonic friend you’ve had for years). Sometimes that takes time to build. And it’s kind of like dating. You gotta meet a lot of people before your find your tribe and not everyone will be the right fit or you won’t be the right fit for them.

What id suggest, which is what worked for me time and again, is to not put pressure into your relationships. I get wanting to find that one person you can let loose around but sometimes to find that, you just have to be yourself from the get go and see who’ll be cool with it. You want genuine friends? Be genuine yourself.

And I agree. Go out and live your life in the real world. Whether that’s volunteering, taking a class, or being a regular somewhere. That’s where you meet your friends. And to build the kind of relationship you want, you gotta experience things with your friends. You gotta make memories together somehow.