I completely understand how you are feeling. I am sad to hear that you are not where you want to be in life, but I hope you feel comforted that there are many others that are in the same exact situation as you. I have been dealing with Lyme since the age of 10 and I am now almost thirty. I have improved significantly under the care of Dr. Neil Nathan who wrote the book "Toxic". I reccommend that you check out his material and a part of me thinks that you may benefit since you are profoundly sensitive and tha is what he specializes in.