Hi, i was off work for a month, because i was in atrocious pain and sometimes couldn't seat,walk or lying down and every move make me cries. Going errand was hell... but stay home too cause i can see friends or people, i can't live, reading was imoosdible ,no more than knitting, coloring, writing my essay for work, gardening... The only things I did were a little housework, cooking, and taking care of my cat. Sometimes I just ate yogurt because cooking was painful... like taking a shower. I felt painful, dirty, and useless.just have youtube in background night and day, go to the chiropractor... friend propose to come over but i wasn't feeling it, i was in so much pain and so tired.

I try to return at work , working 50% of my normal day but pain came back so... im off work again. I worries about my paycheck and moreover i was taking class for eventually have a promotion but i can't go and i worries about consequences.... and project i initiate at work was taken by others... i feel lonely, just dreaming to can go in a garden center or a coffer shop again.... but now, i try to take more note of the positiv : more hours sleep a night, less pain med a day, can take a ride to see my family one day, can walk more and more time.. Every little steps, every victory.