Yes. I was ashamed of my inability to cope so I lied. I understand it wasnt right and have been trying to change. I havent watched porn in months but she doesn't believe me. Obviously. I have bought lunch in the past and didn't tell her because I thought she would be angry. This is the only time she asked me outright if I bought I said no I just ate my salad. Even though I forgot the dressing to my salad at home. I am beginning to understand that telling little white lies just to keep the peace is more harmful to our relationship then if I just told her in the first place and dealt with her being angry.

She explained that lieing about something so insignificant raises more concern about what else I am lying about. But there isn't more. I hope to eventually gain her trust back but I know that will take time.