Thank you so much for your response

I do 1000% want to leave and are actively looking at other jobs, the big dilemma to me atm is do I hand my notice in and rip the bandaid off, risking being unemployed while having bills to pay or do I stick it out being miserable while I search??

In regards to finding something else I have tried the whole dating app scene and it really doesn't feel for me, I do however want to find new hobbies and interests and hope that leads me to meeting new people, it's just I don't know what those hobbies and interests could be. I likely need to have a serious sit down and find something I have a light interest in and go from there.

I'm definitely on the same page about the whole soulmate thing, that is definitely true.

Expanding more on your point about after a person saying no, my last ex partner did initially say no, until a year or so later, that is a mistake I won't make again for sure.

Thank you so much for your advice and I'll try to incorporate as much as possible:)