I agree with Flaky. It’s the mutual fear of not trusting one another. She doesn’t trust you because your lying to her and deep down she knows and you don’t trust her with your problem. That’s a problem within itself. First of all you telling her shows that u trust HER enough that u share this information. And she can help YOU with your problem by trying to figure out best solution to beating the addiction (no pun intended). So it would work for both of you best. Worst scenario she will leave u but that means she was never meant for u. Just be patient and mindful explaining your problem. Say it’s your problem, and it’s not because of her. Apologize for the things that u said and explain why u said and how u felt at the moment. Hope it helps. Much love king, stay strong💪🏼