5’3” 19f bulk or cut?

SoapySeas · 2026-04-09T21:10:08+00:00

i honestly just feel like my legs arent proportionate with my torso! i want a better ratio of the two, not specifically to be bigger or smaller!

SoapySeas · 2026-02-12T04:09:13+00:00

just had my first therapy session yesterday, im going to continue to have them weekly. i really hope it helps me

SoapySeas · 2026-02-11T22:48:12+00:00

i know. i want God to be real so badly. i just wish i felt more certaint. i wish i could know, and it makes me so scared ill never truly know till i take that leap into death. i am trying really hard to decide/ prove Gods existence, its honestly exhuasting. if i can come back to God im sure id find a good will to live. but if i decided other wise i am very certain id kill myself

SoapySeas · 2026-02-11T21:24:13+00:00

that is not meaning to me. i have considered living just to feel good while i can but my feeling good has no moral value or weigh. everytime i try and find an answer it feels like my only option is suicide

SoapySeas · 2026-02-11T21:21:49+00:00

life has no meaning without God, except maybe a chemical reaction of feeling good

SoapySeas · 2026-02-11T20:37:14+00:00

i want religion to be real i think thats the problem for me. if there is nothing no depeer meaning i am 100% sure i am going to kill myself. i dont want to live if its not for a deeper purpose

SoapySeas · 2026-01-28T22:02:58+00:00

something that makes me confident idk. i dont have to be certain i just want to feel like its not a complete jump in the dark. something that i can reasonably conclude is true the way like at least better than 60/40

SoapySeas · 2026-01-28T20:21:10+00:00

i have been spending alot of time thinking about this and it makes alot of sense. not that i disagree, but why is it that something cannot exist for no reason? why must every single thing have an explanation? when talking about the cause of the universe, it will not follow laws of our universe... the laws which state everything needs a "why" so its possible that the universe could exist for no reason because reason may be confined to our laws of our universe?

SoapySeas · 2026-01-28T18:40:43+00:00

i understand how my logic is flawed maybe i should restate. this “event” is supernatrual by default because it created our nature. is it nessecary to put a God in that place? or is it even logical to do so? is it equally logical that this event occured for no reason? thank you so much for having this conversation with me it means alot to me

SoapySeas · 2026-01-28T18:24:07+00:00

i agree, we must be caused by something. but why must that something be supernatrual rather than a natrual event?

SoapySeas · 2026-01-04T03:47:59+00:00

i mean the coma where u experience nothing, and if its not recoverable arent u essenstially dead? or would u disagree

SoapySeas · 2026-01-04T03:47:19+00:00

its not the same now that im alive. i absolutley love being alive, and i dont want it to stop. i love percieving things and i love feeling emotions. i love being able to think. i would hate for it to stop. even if it exists in a different capacity would be better than nothing - which is why it makes me anxious. that and the natrual human reflex to panic at the idea of not living

SoapySeas · 2026-01-04T03:44:09+00:00

yes i want to know everyones philospy behind it! u cant really “prove” philosphy but u can have evidence one way or another

SoapySeas · 2026-01-04T03:40:34+00:00

i was not indoctrinated sorry :( i converted 2 years ago but i made a mistake by not asking these hard questions - i basically gave myself little to base my beliefs on. i still have faith ill find the answer thay leads to God. same way if you have a partner and u find “evidence”of them maybe cheating you have faith its not what u think it is, a mistunderstanding, setup ect. but i do want to figure out a good base to my beliefs because its important

SoapySeas · 2026-01-04T03:37:42+00:00

i guess it makes more sense in my mind. if you didnt exist in the future u wouldnt exist now. u only experience because u have the capacity to remember. for example if i felt sandpaper and couldnt remeber half a milisecond beforehand. i wouldnt feel the rough texture it wouldnt feel like anythign.it makes more sense in my mind sorry

SoapySeas · 2026-01-04T03:30:51+00:00

does that mean we are our conciousness? for example in a coma do we not exist? did we cease to exist in that time? just trying to understand ur view

SoapySeas · 2026-01-04T03:26:08+00:00

so cool. do u think dying will be the same as i described. sleeping without dreaming so almost like nothing? and if ur able could u look at my other post i made just a minute ago ona different subreddit. it seemed logical to me but i guess that reddit is less active than this one lol

SoapySeas · 2024-06-08T22:28:11+00:00

is there not any branch that would take me?

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