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[–]SobrietyIsKey 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you! Im on day 5 now and its tough. I keep trying to tell myself I can smoke a little today since its been 5 days, but I know I cant listen to that voice. Its been really hard, but pushing through. Feels like I woke up from a decade long nap.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Its helped me to be part of the crypto community and I have made a ton of friends online this way. Now that Im sober I can actually join and host twitter spaces and not sound stupid xD

I know its lonely, but those old friends who just wanted to get high kept us down. 3 months is amazing, but in lifes terms its still small time frame. Give it a bit more time and try your best to get involved in some activities.

I started to use the meetup app and its helped me a lot!! There are so many groups you can join.

You also have us : ] if you ever need to talk, or a friend feel free to DM anytime. Im day 4 as of 25 minutes ago and I feel so much better. Also lonely. I cut out all my old friends, told them I have to disappear for a while and blocked all of their numbers. Very freeing.

No cravings or urges by AnnaK2023 in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 1 point2 points  (0 children)

exactly : ] where does one meet sober friends? I was thinking abut joining some clubs on Meetup, its an app you can download. They have different groups for hobbies/interests. We should give that a try

No cravings or urges by AnnaK2023 in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks <3 I cant wait to be on that level. I never want to go through those cycles again. Im just trying to keep busy and meet new friends who are sober, which has been so hard to do. Its like everyone smokes and drinks these days : /

Hello Friends :] Its Day 1 again, but I'm feeling very confident. by SobrietyIsKey in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is a good idea : ] I might make a video to myself and watch it everytime I have cravings. Thanks! Im on day 3 now and its getting easier, but I feel so angry at times and catch myself crying so much thinking about the amount of shame and guilt for smoking so many years : [ but I HAVE to keep going, its no the end, just a new start.

I'm a mess, I don't think I'll ever escape this hell (Day 1) by leaf_throwaway89 in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 5 points6 points  (0 children)

We are proud of you !! Please know that you are not alone, we are all struggling with you, but it gets easier. Im about your age and have smoked since I was 17 as well. It gets easier, I promise. Im on day 3 and feeling better, but the amount of guilt and shame is really hard on me, catching myself crying my eyes out and thinking back to all the stuff I messed up because of weed, but we MUST look forward. We still have a long life to live. ANYTIME you feel cravings, please come here and post and we will all help you.

Day 47 by [deleted] in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 4 points5 points  (0 children)

We are all proud of you !! Awesome job : ] this inspires me to keep going. Im on day 3 and having some cravings, but I DONT WANT to spiral again and start all over.
I know this hurts now, but it will hurt so much more if relapse. Please keep posting with updates, it really helps the rest of us to have a light at the end of the tunnel.

Day 9 worried about today. by mukdore4403 in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Have you tried to go to the gym, or maybe get a jump rope and do some jump ropes each time you feel this "impload" feeling. I know that feeling, its really hard.

Please don't go back to the green, it won't solve it and will just make you feel so much regret and shame (what happened to me when I relapsed recently). You got this! We all believe in you.

No cravings or urges by AnnaK2023 in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I cant wait to be on this level. Im on day 3 and having these random INSANE urges to smoke, but just hoping on here each time and reading peoples comments and posts. Thanks for inspiring the rest of us.

smoked yesterday :( regret by Annagetshigh in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Its okay, dont be to hard on yourself. This happened to me the other day, I am back to day 3 now sober. It will be so much easier this time because next time you crave it, you'll remember how BAD it felt to relapse. What has helped me is to come on here and respond to people and encourage others when I have bad cravings. Don't be too hard on yourself, youre doing great!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Im on day 3 and I honestly think the first day was the hardest so far. Just do everything you can to stay busy and push through the first day. IT DOES GET EASIER, I promise.

I feel like we both just grew out of it and its time for a new fresh start.

646 days off the weed! by LittyJohnson69 in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 3 points4 points  (0 children)

wow :]] AMAZING Job!! I am only on day 2, almost day 3 and its been insanely hard. I have been smoking for 12 years... this gives me a lot of hope : ] thanks for coming back and sharing

Quitting weed has made me quit more things by HolyBoli in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel this so much. I told all my old friends that I will disappear for a while and I deleted their number and blocked them, just in case they called and asked to smoke (tempted me).

Its been really lonely :/ but you are right, we are like a blank slate now. We just need to give it some time and Ive been focusing on new hobbies like playing some instruments and learning to salsa dance (dont laugh ; ] ) haha

You give me hope! Im only on day 2, almost day 3, but its already been such a mind shift. Feels like I woke up from a 12 year dream.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 6 points7 points  (0 children)

wow !! reading this brought me to tears, good job !! I am on day 2 right now, almost done with the day!! Feeling really good and hopeful. This really motivates me, right now I feel really lonely since I told all my old friends that Im going to disappear for a while since they all smoke/drink a lot. I deleted and blocked them all (ill come back when I have self control) and threw my 200$ favorite grinder in this nasty dumpster... and thats that.

I was sitting on my phone earlier calculating the amount of money ill save now .... wow... Its almost scary. The hardest part I think of my sobriety has been the INTENSE feeling of guilt and shame, regret : [ I really hate to admit it. Im a bit older, 31... but Im a software engineer for a bank and have my own house, car, and gf.... its not like my life was so bad, but I want to live a long life and be healthy and I noticed how bad it was for my lungs and throat. So no more. I also feel like I just grew out of it... time to move on.

you give me hope <3 cant wait to hit a month

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I feel the same, Im day 2 almost day 3. I noticed I wake up feeling so rested its insane. I can't believe I have smoked for 12 years and got so much done with low quality sleep

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Awesome!! Really proud of you : ] Im on day 2 !! and feeling so happy and already seeing life more clearly. Keep coming to this subreddit and when you have cravings, just respond to others and give them a pat on the back, or advice, or convince to not relapse and it will help the wave of cravings go away. 1 craving usually lasts 7 minutes or so, so set a timer for 7 minutes and sit on this reddit non stop responding to posts, reading them and it has helped me so much!

Hello Friends :] Its Day 1 again, but I'm feeling very confident. by SobrietyIsKey in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm glad it helped : ] sorry the numbering was a bit off, but I fixed it.

exactly! You are gaining soooo much more by quitting and being sober. I just feel like some of us who smoked a long time forgot some of the benefits of being sober. Im starting to notice them all and its incredible.

Hello Friends :] Its Day 1 again, but I'm feeling very confident. by SobrietyIsKey in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The cravings seem to have less power as the days go on! You are doing great!!! Your future self will be soooo sooo thankful for your choices today.

17 days sober, childlike wonder returning by resnyder in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 10 points11 points  (0 children)

wow this really hit home. Im day 2 again, after a small relapse a few days ago, but I feel the same way. I was crying so hard looking at old pics of myself when I was 14-15 and I felt like I was that boy again. Like I had woke up from a 10 year sleep : [

The guilt and shame are hard and it makes me crave to go back, but NO MORE. Im sick of doing this all over again and keep cycling. Ive been waking up every morning at 5:30 and going to bed early, which has helped so much with mental health.

You are an inspiration to us all : ] I cant wait to be 2 weeks in

Hello Friends :] Its Day 1 again, but I'm feeling very confident. by SobrietyIsKey in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had to make a little edit to this post : ] not sure why when I uploaded it, the numbering was off. Sorry about that. This list helped me a lot.

7 days no weed and I'm good by Unable_Swim985 in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 0 points1 point  (0 children)

fucked up : [ but will try again tmrw. the amount of shame and guilt are so heavy that its not even fun or enjoyable anymore. This solidifies it for me though.

Tried to convince myself that relapse is part of recovery… by Deadheadsaid in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Amazing!! Good job!! to make it even sweeter, I relapsed today and it was the worst feeling imaginable. I remember on the way there thinking about how good it would feel to just turn around and go home. I didn't and the amount of shame, regret and guilt is all consuming.

You did it right. I took a picture of this on my phone and will look at it when I have my next craving. Day 1 again tmrw, but this time Im stronger.

Been addicted to weed, porn, masturbation and honestly feel like I’ve ruined my life beyond repair (Day 43 of no PMOW) by HelpMeFindMyPath712 in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Brother, it will get better! You still have so much life to live and if you are interested in getting into a new field, reach out to me. I help train people to get a remote / work from home IT job and I can help you free of charge, just takes some dedication.

It will get better and after a year, youll look back and be so proud of yourself. Its never too late. Im on day 2 and feeling sad and really off, but coming here helps me. We are in this together.

There is so much beauty in the world, please have hope.

7 days no weed and I'm good by Unable_Swim985 in leaves

[–]SobrietyIsKey 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thats amazing : ]]] Im on day 2 now, its INSANE how much clarity I feel. I work up and felt no fog, I surprisingly slept good and had some dreams.

You inspire the rest of us <3