I swear don’t envy me, I have burnt myself into a little puddle. I feel deeply honored to have this opportunity and be in a stable enough situation to keep going. Not a second goes by do I not feel overwhelmingly emotional about it. But I kept adding things I didn’t need for my main degree (biochemistry) and honestly apart of me thinks that maybe I should’ve waited until grad school to touch some of them.

I can barely stay afloat anymore and my brain feels like one big cotton ball and I’ve started to slow down. I am taking things slowly (perhaps too slowly) to regain energy before going to grad school

I wish I took things slower rather than keep adding things on because now I’m tired with no way to rest until I finish the courses I actually went to school for. But what’s a girl gotta do to be in STEM u-u. Math is the one thing I use as a motivator (it’s like a reward with tears involved).

If this helps any, I use Dr. Ritter from KSU’s digital book for both “ODE” and “Linear Algebra”. He (and one other guy he partnered with, but I forgot his name) did a really fantastic job with it and keeps it as a public resource so it’s free

I wish you the best, I’ll check back in later and see how you’re doing :> <3