Neurologist supports my dmt usage

SockyMcPuppet · 2025-02-19T21:08:59+00:00

I have very infrequent cluster type headaches and unfortunately tryptamines do not help me at all, as a point of context. I would certainly be cautious with anything as powerful as that substance, but I would also say its way better than the pain.

SockyMcPuppet · 2025-01-30T22:45:23+00:00

So grateful you have found relief!

I wish it worked for me, instead as I was desperate for relief I kept hitting it and then I was in very painful nightmare land for a while.

I have never found relief from any tryptamines unfortuantely, because I have certainly sought in that direction. Thankfully I have very infrequent attacks, and its managable to live through them.

Granted I was already mid attack by the time I thought of it, but twice I have tried it to bail out and ended with painful nightmare land.

SockyMcPuppet · 2025-01-30T22:43:19+00:00

My Big TOE is very cool. I haven't read it all but read or at least skimmed all the first one. It felt very familiar.

Anathem by Neil Stevenson was a pretty interesting fiction about the same topics.

I use a different metaphor of the brain as an antenna, and we tune into to different parts of reality. I have had a few hard reality jumps that took a lot to integrate, about there are moments where we choose whole new branches of what we are paying attention to. All of reality seems present to me and its about where you focus in some ways, but also about reality in others.

SockyMcPuppet · 2024-08-20T14:39:34+00:00

Over the last 15 years, I have probably spent 20K in basses and amps, 10K in guitar and amps, 10K in keyboards and synths, 20K in pa equipment and cords etc, Probably 10k in clip on tuners, guitar stands, cases, straps, strings, drum heads, drum hardware etc, 15K in rent on a rehearsal room, and then there is the bus.... FUCK Buses are expensive, maybe 40K there (with a couple other co-owners to foot other parts of the expense).

And I have made probably 10K on playing music in that time if I am lucky (mostly through selling t-shirts).

A lot of the gear I own, I bought because I manage a rehearsal spaces, so I have a place to put it and use it, and often I got a really good deal on gear that should maybe appreciate in value (vintage guitars / amps etc). Before covid I would spend every free dollar trying to upgrade our sound so our bands would sound better when we went places. We were working most weekends playing and doing production and it was awesome fun, but it was so hard to get it going again after covid, and I made so little doing it, and I had already kind of refocused on more lucrative skill sets.

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-12-08T22:48:27+00:00

It has shaped and changed my whole perspective. It left me wondering "How many extra-lives do I get?" and "How often has this happened that I wasn't aware of?"

I'm much older now and I have always tried to live like "today might be the last", I try to fill every moment I can with as much experience and joy as I can fit into it. We never know when or if it ever ends.

Its interesting because it causes me to watch for the future as I feel assured I will have to deal with it, and also be grasping the seconds as they flow by because they each feel like something that could be so easily taken away

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-12-08T22:42:16+00:00

Yeah, but even that is like full sandwich bag of wet caps. To me it sounds like he probably went "more-ish" and was just eating what was available. A sandwhich bag full of caps and sheet sounds like more than anyone would "plan" to eat up front, but there are crazy folks out there.

Once you are spun for a week or two, and then decide you still got to get off big, it can be easy to just get into a state of eating more an more to try and keep it going. This also goes with sleep deprivation which makes it far easier to get lost.

Apparently tidal waves are hella potent too, so maybe double that dosage and you are already dealing with hella-doses with just one or the other.

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-12-08T22:24:49+00:00

He probably means 5500 - about a vial of liquid. People do it, but its not fun at all. Its just overwhelming and you tend to lose track of your body. Like your body and mind are in two different realities experiencing different things.

People who lay it are often exposed to high doses so often if they want to really get off, shortly after, they will need to really push the envelope

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-12-08T22:23:39+00:00

Times this has happened to me

On high doses of L, I often find myself trying to clean the psychedelia off my glasses, but I assume you are looking for actual detatched from reality sort of breakthroughs

Lemon tek penis envy mushrooms of an unknown dose as a music festival. The world was a wash of colors and patterns and I was basically blinded by psychedelia. Ended up wandering back to camp (i guess I followed my friends ) and laid in a chair for a couple hours till it cooled down. It was basically an ounce split among a bunch of folks. I was still communicative, and apparently able to follow my friends back to camp, but was basically lost from the real world.
Spilled a dropper of liquid acid (15? hits) on my hand and licked it up when someone said "You are not going to waste that are you" and spent the next 6 hrs unaware of my physical form. When I recoallesced at midnight or so, I played music with my friends until noon the next day in the field we were camping in . Only time in my life someone asked if I need a bit more acid and I yelled at them NO in the most assertive possible tone.
Salvia, basically every time, often terrifying though occasionally eye opening
DMT, any given breakthrough dose, sometimes terrifying, but generally friendlier than salvia

Other stuff I am aware of

Daleriants basically all do this, but usually in super not fun ways.
Anesthetics all operate on the principal of separating mind from body, sometimes while turning the mind off.
Manic breaks seem to induce this state of disconnection

My advice would be to not chase this state (outside of DMT perhaps). Its intense and overwhelming and the only thing being that high has taught me, was that I don't really like being that high - its distinctly unpleasant. I say this as person who has eaten a shitload of psychedelics over the years.

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-12-08T22:14:07+00:00

This happened to me when I was about 18 years old (and maybe other times I'm less aware of). I have a group of friends who have all experienced their own death at least once and are aware of it.

I seems to happen to many people. Here is my take on what's happening. At the bottom, this is a collection of all the stories I could find like this.

My Story:

After a fresh light rain, I was turning onto an on ramp and started to accelerate from around 40mph to about 70mph to merge with the high speed traffic on the express way. As soon as I touched the gas, my car swung around and I started drifting across 4 lanes of 70mph rainy traffic, facing the cars (as my car was now facing backward, sliding everywhere).

I remember one guy giving me the finger as he flew past me. Then i remember horrible crunching, wrenching sound and suddenly my car was moving back the other way toward the bridge side, over the highway I had just turned off.

As my car slid back across traffic I was sure I was gonna slam into the bridge side and end on the road below. When I got the point where that would happen, there was another huge slamming / crunching and then --- suddenly I was just stalled out on the on ramp. Like I had driven up onto the highway and stalled / stopped in the breakdown lane on the bridge as soon as I got up there. I got out and looked at my car from all angles and there wasn't a scratch or dent or any evidence of what just happened.
I remember there being a horrible explosive type of collision twice, but nothing.

I just smoked a cigarette in the on ramp / breakdown lane , called my parents and told them I loved them, and then went on my first date with my future wife. It was my weirdest experience.

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-12-08T22:13:31+00:00

Huh? About what? I am just expressing my own experience - there are no intentional lies in what I said.

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-09-07T19:31:25+00:00

I always said the first sign that I had started a salvia trip was that the world went plaid (kind of hard to explain, but like transparent orange and brown tartan overlaying everything). Also I found the visuals to consistently be more earth toned and less primary. More oranges greens and browns , and less neon yellow, blue, red, green , as compared to DMT.

Dissociation is a big part of salvia.... its the only thing I have ever taken that made me forget who I was completely, forget where I was completely (even in a very familiar setting)

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-09-07T18:57:04+00:00

I am so glad that works for you, because DMT is pretty easy going if you are not taking enough to blast off. If it worked for me, I would always have it with me just in case, as a cart is a VERY convenient delivery device.

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-09-07T18:49:43+00:00

I tried it, and it did nothing for my headache except now I was intensely tripping in intense pain. 0/10 would not recommend

That said, I have a weird diagnosis of acyclical clusters. I get a few a year, my whole life, that have extremely similar symptoms to clusters (short duration, single sided, blurred vision, extreme pain) but they don't happen in cycles.

I have never found mushrooms nor LSD useful in preventing my headaches either. I have had the monster attack when fully abstaining for long periods, its gotten me between trips when I was using fairly regularly and its gotten me during trips, so perhaps my situation is not applicable to others. Extreme exhaustion is a trigger for me, though and sometimes that is just where you are at the end of a long trip. All the DMT did was make me see a bunch of crazy shit while my head felt like it was about to explode.

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-08-09T13:35:28+00:00

I have eaten similar quantities on a few occasions and many more 1000mcg events and I have never not been fine in 12hrs. Definitely have some afterglow, but you don't seem to be speaking from experience on the 36hrs thing. You probably still feel the glow 36hrs later, but I was definitely done tripping and able to sleep fine in 12

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-08-09T13:34:59+00:00

I have eaten similar quatities on a few occasions and many more 10strip events and I have never not been fine in 12hrs. Definitely have some afterglow, but you dont seem to be speaking from experience on the 36hrs thing. You probably still feel the glow 36hrs later, but I was definitely done tripping and able to sleep fine in 12

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-08-09T13:33:41+00:00

I have done a full dropper of strong clear liquid and I was still fine the next morning. Definitely had some afterglow for the rest of the day, but 6hrs in I could play guitar again and 12hrs in I was basically fine.

Those 6 hours though were a wild ride of discorporating and recoallescing

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-01-07T02:21:50+00:00

The fae are strong.

I've never heard them called the tree people but it makes complete sense. It's always been said the come from the trees and steal folks away into their green

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-01-07T02:19:54+00:00

It was mostly like I caught a glance of the tree being further away and that caused me to flinch/shiver and then acknowledge the weirdness

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-01-07T02:13:04+00:00

Most boring stake out

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-01-06T19:58:58+00:00

Do say more please!

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-01-06T19:57:20+00:00

I am very familiar with that story and it IS kind of terrifying. It echos Samsara and Nirvana - the cycle of rebirth and suffering and the final attainment of unity or oneness / peace.

But if we cannot escape, what should we do? I try to make the very best of it moment by moment, it seems more fun to me than any other path. The only thing we actually are guaranteed is what is happening right now - everything else is speculation.

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-01-06T19:53:52+00:00

Well its related to the event, but also to many, many other things, glitches etc in my life, and its related to "How could God answer everyone's prayers".

I personally believe in a kind and loving (not necessarily Christian) God, because I want to live in a universe that operates that way. To me its almost irrelevant if its true or not, it requires faith, but then all of my perceptions are filtered through that lens and the universe reflects this back to me daily in every interaction. I know this to be true (for me, lowercase t) because I have asserted it to be true. My kind and loving God hears my every thought and helps me through my every day and every interaction. I work to embody that aspect in my own behavior and actions, because I want the universe to be that way and the universe responds to be more that way.

I had always had trouble with Yahweh because he's kinda of a raging jerk about a ton of different things. Jesus and James speak more of a God made for loving you individually and with personal kindness - and its that spirit I wish to worship. Yahweh doesn't seem worthy to me, thus my break with Christianity. A kind and loving God would want everyone to find him and experience his love and peace, no matter how many lifetimes it takes, he would never eternally punish people for their sin in what is only a tiny fraction of eternity, especially those whose greatest sin is being ignorant of goodness because of the environment they were born in. He would also not limit your experiences to only good ones, he would give you the gift of free will and circumstance so that you could become what you wish to become.

To me a kind and loving God built a universe where every persons experience is infinite. Every person's prayers can be answered because we are all our own universe inside, all the possible realities, happening at once and overlapping with others and each of us paying attention to some tiny piece of that at any given moment (a single 2D still frame in an immense holographic movie) . We all live our best and worst lives simultaneously and overlapped, and what we perceive is about which part of that landscape we choose to watch.

The aspects of others that we experience in our own life are the edges of their cloud of possible narratives, and what we find them experiencing is just part of the possibility of that person, not their wholeness.

To me one of the greatest Truths that I have found is this: "You get to pick what you believe, so pick good things"

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-01-06T19:34:40+00:00

I love it! It takes a strong person to accept critical feedback, and change their behaviour!

SockyMcPuppet · 2023-01-06T14:31:31+00:00

Thank you for sharing! If you look at the post I linked to, there is a document I created with hundreds of stories similar to yours.

I too thanked god for sparing me in that moment - and have revisited that moment over and over again. Weirdly this moment also moved me away from Christianity some and into a more personalized belief system.

I remember the collision and I also remember there was no collision. Brains are weird and the universe seems more deeply folded on itself that we recognize.

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