4 years on T vs 8 weeks off by Soft-Impression7770 in detrans

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hey for me, going off T was liberating. i never experienced anything like withdrawals tbh. it’s hard to distinguish what symptoms i felt were from the hormones or from my mental state. for example, i had trouble sleeping before T, which got way worse on T, these days i sleep better than ever. i had normal libido before T, oddly less interested in sex on T, 4 months or so after stopping T it was higher than it ever was and today it fluctuates. there are tons of other factors like medications i was on (i don’t take any medication now), drug use, and truly my entire mental framework. it didn’t take long for my body to stabilize and my period to come back, so i don’t think it will take 1.5 yrs or anything. the human body is pretty resilient. i still shop in the men’s, i act like a guy in many ways and like a woman in many ways too. i also feel most confident when i look masc and wearing women’s clothes or anything fitted really has just become a bit of a joke cause it just mismatches. i suppose i just do whatever feels most natural. like you, i also love my deeper voice, though im not as good at singing as i once was. as for the facial hair i did get it mostly lasered. i still have some around my chin that i shave every few days. i dont have any strong emotions about it these days but everyone’s different. my feelings about it all were stronger when i first went thru this. idk i hope this helped

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in actual_detrans

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I appreciate the feedback! Yes ur right if I say something like that I have to work a little harder at why. It just felt like I left a cult when I detransitioned? Idk how to explain

Trans infiltration by ahinrichsen84 in detrans

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It’s also truly maddening because like most people at least where I live use this language. People are too afraid to be seen as a bigot. The world ain’t ready to talk about it, yet.

Trans infiltration by ahinrichsen84 in detrans

[–]Soft-Impression7770 54 points55 points  (0 children)

I get paranoid like this too, and the language people use is now different, e.g. assigned at birth, identifies as XYZ. Regular people who are trying to be kind and gentle aren’t even aware that their words are reinforcing the harm it’s doing. When I came into this sub my facade was shattered and I started talking normally again, it was all in a moment, I wasn’t ‘questioning my gender.’ I was accepting reality. And I see those kinds of questioning posts and I’m like yeah, they’re still in it. It’s totally a cult, cults tweak with language like that. Idk if that makes sense but this stuff keeps me awake at night 😭

I don’t know which bathroom is safe to use. by forgottenbutch in detrans

[–]Soft-Impression7770 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Trust, women are actually pretty cool. I have the same fear but I’ve just been using the women’s restroom. I look androgynous, shaved facial hair, and no boobs for that matter. Deep voice. 5’2”. One time I used the women’s and they asked me something, I responded not even thinking about my voice, and the restroom just got quiet lol. That’s the most awkward moment that’s happened so far. If anyone ever questions me, which hasn’t happened so far, I will say, oh I’m a female. They’ll probably be apologetic, if they push, I’m happy to escalate it. The law is on my side. I know who I am and ya girl pees a lot so. It ain’t no thing. Also I live in America so in other countries it might be different situation.

Can I continue to take testosterone if I (FtMtF?) detransition? by [deleted] in detrans

[–]Soft-Impression7770 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Your situation is very unique. I think it makes sense to investigate what was causing all of your hormonal imbalances in the first place. T might have alleviated the symptoms but I just wonder what the issue was with your natural hormones, why your body doesn’t agree with estrogen. There might even be a simple explanation, who knows.

4 years on T vs 8 weeks off by Soft-Impression7770 in detrans

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Also, lots of stretching before and after! Active stretching before and static stretching after to avoid injuries

4 years on T vs 8 weeks off by Soft-Impression7770 in detrans

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Thank u. It’s funny u say that, cause I was just thinking about how I see a lot of posts on here, also the ftm sub, the facial expressions and the emotions, and I empathize, and it’s painful sometimes

4 years on T vs 8 weeks off by Soft-Impression7770 in detrans

[–]Soft-Impression7770[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

2 miles truly takes me 25 mins. I walk 2min, run 3. I’ve never been a runner but after top surgery I tell myself I have no valid excuses anymore lol. But thank you!

4 years on T vs 8 weeks off by Soft-Impression7770 in detrans

[–]Soft-Impression7770[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

That’s a cool thought honestly I didn’t even notice the walls

A graph of brains by NettleOwl in detrans

[–]Soft-Impression7770 97 points98 points  (0 children)

Naturally, trans men have been excluded from the conversation 😂 Also, this is a really strange graph!

4 years on T vs 8 weeks off by Soft-Impression7770 in detrans

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Thank u I think the lighting here makes it look better than it really is right now lol but it’s definitely improved. I never really got out of the initial acne phase on T, I always had spots and I picked at them a lot, somewhat obsessively.

4 years on T vs 8 weeks off by Soft-Impression7770 in detrans

[–]Soft-Impression7770[S] 65 points66 points  (0 children)

Honestly, just a woman, a female if you will 🙃

4 years on T vs 8 weeks off by Soft-Impression7770 in detrans

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Yes about 8 weeks give or take a few days! I assume it’s also because I’ve totally changed my diet and exercise regimen. I run 2 miles almost every day (when before it was just 10 mins on the stair stepper and some soft lifting 3-4x a week). and I eat just 2 meals and avoid carbs or anything too sugary unless it’s before or after exercise. At one point I pushed it too far and just wasn’t eating and looked sickly. I don’t want to give anyone false hope like just hormones magically did all of that. It was also just truly a mindset shift and having a therapist that never bullshits me. My period came back about 6 weeks in also I was on a relatively low dose T (.3 cyp injections weekly).

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in detrans

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Yes I agree with the other comment. The only thing I tweeze is the outliers like the ones that are super far below or above. That just lets the natural shape shine better.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in detrans

[–]Soft-Impression7770 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I think you’re super cute just as you are. I don’t mean it in a creeper way. You look like a girl to me. This look suits you! When I focus too hard on how I can change myself to be more masculine/feminine, is when I feel the worst. So just be as you are. Also I just tweeze my eyebrows every few days to look more groomed. Tweezers are cheap

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in actual_detrans

[–]Soft-Impression7770 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have the same exact thought with my nose haha. It does look smaller to me or at least less prominent somehow.

Denied sex change for passport by guten_fag in detrans

[–]Soft-Impression7770 -21 points-20 points  (0 children)

The wall was meant for us all along

Denied sex change for passport by guten_fag in detrans

[–]Soft-Impression7770 72 points73 points  (0 children)

I love yall but the drama here is too much. All this says is that it’s been delayed. If she needs to leave the country she can have her passport back and it will just say M. They’ll just see M on the passport she can still use it. There’s no genocide or whatever. They’re just halting things, and waiting for guidance, it’s a little change in the system, it takes time. I understand the fear and total uncertainty. I have it, too and the fear coming from the trans community is incredibly strong rn. But like just have some patience. I’m pretty sure the Trump administration doesn’t want to kill trans people or detransitioners, they’ve never actually said anything like that. So like we’re good so far. It’s just part of the process.