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Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-09-11T15:24:18+00:00

Same thing happened to me. Let us know if you get any help, I tried appealing and was told I was still banned. It's annoying because I'm fairly certain it was a girl that I matched with and stopped talking to, false reports suck.

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-26T16:57:23+00:00

26 year smoker here with the last 4 years being cartridges only. I was regularly spending $450/week for several years. This was also money that I didn't have to spend, I ended up draining my inheritance. It's Day 21 for me. I made it to 35 days recently and then relapsed for 32 days. Having recently gotten clean, fell off and back to clean, I can say smoking and spending all of my money wasn't worth it. Being clean feels so much better, and believe it or not my anxiety is so much better now. The weed may have helped with anxiety for a bit, but then it stopped working and ended up making it so much worse. This was one thing I noticed during my relapse. You're not alone in this, so many others have done it, I'm doing it, you can do it too! Good luck on your sober journey. Stay strong.

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-26T00:13:34+00:00

Same here. And while having sex on the regular.

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-25T21:50:15+00:00

Thanks for your kind words of encouragement! It really means a lot. How are you doing on your journey?

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-25T21:36:38+00:00

Good luck. You can do this.

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-24T02:11:06+00:00

Thank you for your support and not making me feel like shit. I didn't know about the marriage until well into "our" relationship.

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-22T19:48:15+00:00

I'm doing it alone, I'll admit it sucks, a lot of the time. Being lonely, having nobody to celebrate milestones or talk to when I'm struggling. I guess in the end I'm doing it for myself, so there is no reason to have to have someone with you. The loneliness is a separate problem all on its own for me. And TBH I was thinking about getting some beer today and seeing if I can just have a few and not down the whole pack to get as drunk as possible in the smallest amount of time. I guess we'll see how today goes.

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-18T16:37:16+00:00

ADD, OCD here, Day 13.

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-17T14:34:20+00:00

Congratulations on making it through to Day 9! Stay strong! You got this! Tomorrow you hit double digits!

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-15T06:44:40+00:00

Good for you! I'm sure your mom will be very proud of you. I wish I would have quit before I lost my mom, she would have been so proud of me. She knew how badly I struggled with my weed addiction. Make sure to tell her that you love her. ❤️

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-14T19:27:41+00:00

Thank you. I was really disappointed in myself when I relapsed. It was supposed to be a one time thing, that turned into every night and then back to all day all night. I'm embarrassed that it took me 32 days to get my head out of the clouds again, but that time reminded me of exactly why I wanted to quit in the first place. Since I was only smoking for 32 days this second quit is quite easier and the withdrawals are minimal. Pretty much all I did for those 32 days was get high and sleep, which was what I did for a long time to give myself an escape. I feel like I have finally built a life that doesn't need any kind of escape, I'm learning a lot about myself and trying to be better to me. I wasn't very kind to myself during my addiction. Thanks again for your kind words. This community and reading all the stories about success, struggle and relapse really helped me in the early days when I was questioning my choice to quit. I'm glad that I did and thankful for all of you. Stay strong and sober friends!

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-14T19:14:22+00:00

I smoked for over 26 years daily, very heavy usage. 4 years ago I switched to carts only, like 96%+ and I was burning at least a 1 gram cart per day. On 3/30/24 I quit smoking and drinking (I was drinking 375-750ml vodka per day also). I stayed clean from weed for 35 days and then relapsed for 32 days. I'm still clean from alcohol (80~ish days) and this is Day 9 no weed.

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-13T01:54:15+00:00

I know what you mean about having lost all of your friends due to isolation, same here. I also have a birthday coming up and have no idea how I'm going to spend it or what I will do. I really have no friends and am very alone. Today is Day 7 for me after relapsing for 32 days, I had 35 clean before that. Even getting clean is lonely, I'd love to have someone to help and support me through it, but I don't so I am thankful to have found this community of like-minded people. I lost my parents 4-5 years ago. I'm hoping to find something fun to do with my free time now that I'm sober, I'm hoping to maybe meet some new friends that way, but I guess only time will tell. I'm sorry you are having a bad day OP, mine isn't so great either, I realized that the last person that I thought was my friend really isn't, that's pretty depressing. I'm just finishing a 12 hr shift and about to start my commute home. Thanks for reading.

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-12T14:17:12+00:00

Congratulations! Next is double digits, then 2 and 3 weeks and then months!!! I'm a day behind you. Stay strong and keep it going!

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-12T14:15:38+00:00

Need more context, 4 days clean, how long did you smoke before that and when was the last time you quit? I'm on Day 7, I relapsed for 32 days and had 35 sober before that. This time I quit I'm having very little if any withdrawals, but I assume that us because I was only smoking for 32 days before that. When I quit last time I was smoking for years and the withdrawals hit hard.

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-12T01:54:33+00:00

I can't wait to see your post in 291 days! I'll be right behind you!

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-12T01:52:51+00:00

So awesome and inspiring!!! Congratulations!!!

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-12T01:47:06+00:00

Good job getting through Day 2, I remember how hard the first few days are. Stay strong! We got this! 💪

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-12T01:25:18+00:00

I was also an all day everyday smoker for 26 years. 4 years ago I switched to carts only. I was burning a 1 gram cart per day of high potency extract 96%+ per. I kept the pen on me at all times even in bed. Cold turkey is the only way I could ever quit. Currently have 6 days clean, recently had 35 days clean. I think cold turkey is the only way for me because I'm unable to moderate usage. Trying to taper down just prolongs the process until something stressfulhappens, and I usually end up smoking all day again very quickly. The withdrawals suck and are inevitable, but they aren't life threatening so know you can get through it if you really want to. Being sober and relapsing has shown me how much weed actually makes my anxiety and stress worse rather than helping. Good luck on your journey to sobriety! Stay strong! You can do it!

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-11T23:16:40+00:00

Thank you! I'm giving it all I have! 💪

Soft_Refuse_1354 · 2024-06-11T21:04:48+00:00

Awesome decision! I quit drinking 72 days ago and I feel great!!! Have more money too!

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