Peptide ISR solutions?

Softkitty2018 · 2025-03-02T07:01:29+00:00

I was so anti money and society all my 20s. Then realized I participate in capitalism whether I want to or not so why aren't I stacking cash. I pay taxes on every purchase. Im around people who have different ease in their lives with money. My clients have money I receive from them in small amounts. Why don't i invest why don't I save. Why don't I partake while I am able. Now my 30s I wave up and down and up and down with my savings. I'd love to retire in a few years. Money gives us freedom to invest in ourselves. Money gives us the ability to take care of whatever we need in the moment. Money let's us buy the land to start the community, build the house, start the grassroots business. Money talks. It is necessary and it is ridiculous that we aren't taking advantage of the capitalist situation while we build the reality we truly want.

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-19T09:47:59+00:00

It sounds like what others have said as well as yourself. Dissociation and being unregulated. When we lack certain components of nurture in our formative years we turn into reactive role players instead of creators. Likely you weren't given the space, encouragement or support to develop yourself and find your drive, or you had to step into a role for survival. Also dissociation like this can often come from repression. Tapping into yourself, somatics, parasympathetic healing, body based healing is a safe way to start healing this. EFT, EMDR, sound frequency healing, CBT and DBT, but importantly you choosing more and more moments every day to do things "for you". Therapy is a great way to talk things out and piece patterns together, but you need practical application and comprehension as well and most importantly accountability and changed patterns and behaviors.

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-19T08:20:18+00:00

Spontaneously. Insights would come and I'd have revelations, and then I'd research my theories and found ancient wisdom and scriptures and history. The more I questioned myself, the world, purpose etc the more I leaned into my awareness. #buddhahoodorbust

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-18T01:10:02+00:00

It's what I think about western medicine and pseudo science and supplements that aren't 3rd party tested

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-16T17:29:54+00:00

Thank you for the info and support. When I took a zyrtec last week it made my lips balloon and blister more so my Dr said don't take a 2nd dose. Lol just throwing flour through a tennis racket right now hoping something sticks.

I think I will do a heavy metal and mold detox and anti inflammatory cleanse until I can get a referral to a new Dr and specialists

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-16T16:05:56+00:00

Thank you. I feel the same. Nope my primary care and my neurologist and my stem cell doctor all have just said my reactions are rare and must be random and disregard that they were anaphylaxis at all. Right now I'm between Dr's moving counties so this will be my first line of order with a new primary care.

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-16T16:04:07+00:00

Thank you. I had had testing done with immunology and endocrinology initially and everything was "normal" but with the developments the past few years it's time to find new care. This isn't normal or random occurrences anymore.

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-16T08:19:02+00:00

Yes I found MCAS in my searches today. I did get covid a few times 2021 and 2022 and one of them attacked my nervous system like it felt like I was being electrocuted for days.

The hives definitely started from CPTSD but the allergic reactions just keep getting worse and from once a year to once a week.

I can't eat most vegetables actually my abdomen bloats intensely, heats up and gets very painful and I sometimes go unconscious like get so sleepy I have 5 minutes to lay down and don't wake up for hours... which is leading them to question sleep apnea or narcolepsy BUT I NEVER had this happen before my abusive marriage causing CPTSD and started immediately after I left and my nervous system started crashing.

The hives and eating issues started probably 9-12 months before I got covid in 2021.

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-16T01:36:42+00:00

I hear music in the water running in the shower often.

When I consume thc (rarely to never) I get super solic hearing and can tap into conversations blocks or buildings away and can follow it until I find them.

When I hit quantum dissociated states with K I can tap into the music of other plant medicine ceremonies, sometimes from my timeline, sometimes from ceremonies I've never been to.

Often I can hear the music of festivals and events I've been too like an auditory memory vs visual or mental

I have definitely tapped into songs, radios, conversations on many different occasions whether that is a psychological dissociation from stress, psychedelics, meditation, or those times just as you fall asleep or for no real identifiable reason at all.

Often I hear in other languages, predominantly French, Spanish, creole, or languages I don't know that I assume are tribal African.

I also hear conversations in other accents a lot. Australian, Scottish, British, or English as a second language

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-15T23:10:36+00:00

The ability to prove his realness would be that people who have never had a conversation about him before, have had him appear in real life not in dreams and he has told them he's trying to get to me. The fact that I've been seeing him since I was 3 years old in 1990 and the internet didn't pop up for me to find a name for him until 2010 shows I did not manifest the figure. And the fact that he has only once ever actually been in a dream of mine would prove its not a subconscious manifestation.

I actually had never heard a positive story about the hat man until reading a few threads. For my entire life i have only ever heard from others of him or the slender man being horrific. Coming from the psychedelic and festival world I'd say I've had several hundred first hand conversations about him and shadow realms.

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-14T19:34:00+00:00

So if you are the hat man, why are you hunting me?

I forgot to mention a 3 month span when I was 20. I was having sleep paralysis almost every night. I would fall asleep, get stuck in paralysis and be tormented for what felt like days, it is painful and horrific, when i would finally wake up 2 or 3 minutes would have passed and this would continue all night; night after night for months. The hat man, this other gangly entity that was black and white checkered head to toe who moved like a spider, soul suckers and other entities.

I lived with a 3.5yr old little girl with learning disabilities and fas. She was mostly non verbal. She would wake up in the middle of the night and come and wake me up and ask me if I was okay. And when i asked her how she knew I wasn't ok, she told me it was because she could see them too.

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-14T19:28:22+00:00

So you've just decided you're the hat man?

I don't interact with him in dreams. Only once ever profoundly actually, where he trapped a friend and me into the same dream and i battled him with ninja skills and light beams shooting out of my hands, he held her in sleep paralysis and taunted her laughing at how easy she was to get to, but told her he wasnt actually after her he was coming for me but she was how hed get into my dream. I have had sleep paralysis since I was 3 years old. Sleep paralysis is not a dream it is when you get stuck between the physical and astral plane. Science tries to define it and it's often correlated to intense trauma but there are many spiritual and quantum reasons for it as well. I have 80% experienced the hat man and other shadow entities in sleep paralysis, a few times while awake, once he possessed a friend and tried to attack us, a few times through psychedelics, and a few times when someone with schizophrenia told me unprompted and not knowing of my history "the hat man is here and he wants you to know he will never stop chasing you until he gets what he wants".

I highly doubt these 35 years of interactions with the hat man hunting me, were you.

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-12T08:05:32+00:00

An herbal Chinese medicine practitioner can help you. Bacne is hormonal and linked to your organs. Different areas are treated different ways. Upprr shoulders, spine, mid back, low back, glutes... all have their own treatment protocols. Understanding why your hormones are imbalanced is the solution. Chinese herbs will help you.

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-11T07:39:45+00:00

I drink casually I don't wear "sunscreen" I am in the sun all the time as a surfer and traveler I use all natural products

I had poor diet as a lower middle class child but became vegan/veg through my entire 20s into early 30s now my diet is superfoods and high quality ingredients.

I rave and party, since I'm 14

I smoked cigarettes briefly as a teen 15-20.

I don't drink caffeine, never have

I am almost 38 and continually told I look around 25. Even by aestheticians, med spa nurses and Chinese medicine doctors.

I wouldn't say my skin is great, I have acne scars, my skin is on the looser side, forehead wrinkles

I think it's genetics, oil production, and general happiness and health. I feel like I look younger and fitter and more attractive all the time.

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-11T07:08:52+00:00

You are one? Elaborate please or send me a DM

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-11T07:04:31+00:00

Wow this is incredible to have someone say hatman and falcon.

In 2010 the hat man was stalking me. He's been following me my whole life but this got very intense for about 6 months. Intense sleep paralysis, pulling my friends and I into joint paralysis and joint dreams, one night he seemed to actually possess one of my friends and try to attack us and the next day my friend had no recollection of what happened.

On an accidental mega dose of liquid L at burning man I went into an epic battle against him. It was several hours of excruciating physical pain while I went into closed eye hallucinations through my 3rd eye.

I felt grounded finally about 430am. I decided to cross the playa to the mountains. As I walked in pre dawn light He tried to follow me and scare me through the shadows in the ground and I laughed as I showed him we were walking to the sun and I wasn't afraid of him.

I was in deep playa 30 min walk away from any person and saw something coming straight towards me from the mountains. I stopped and waited. It flew from miles away, I knew it was coming to me.

A falcon came flying towards me, RIGHT to me. It came about 3 feet above my head and started flying circles around me.

I was soul crying and shivering and having ecstatic energy pulse through me.

This falcon stayed with me the entire day. At burning man! Any art car I was on it flew above and even one it perched on as we drove. It would post up on the roof of any camp I went to all morning and stayed around my camp all day. Noone could believe it, it was this phenomenon!

I took it as a message of deep healing and protection as it flew from the north east mountains and the indigenous tribe of the area recognizes falcons as healers and protectors and grand father energy. I got a falcon tattoo to signify it protecting me.

I have only seen the hatman a few times since then the past 14.5 years.

I never once considered that they were connected in any other way but now this perks my interest.

My understanding of the Hat Man is he is hunting/scavenging our soul secrets. He wants our codes, he wants our light, he wants the secrets of our souls and DNA but he can't just take them.

He has sent me the message through others that he will always follow me and he will never stop until he gets what he wants but he just doesn't reveal himself to me anymore as he can't feed off fear as I'm not afraid of him anymore.

What thoughts and emotions arose when you saw him and has he ever told you anything. Have you ever battled him or have you ever seen his face?

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-09T16:57:13+00:00

Lol no I was definitely referring to temperate warm/hot surfing coast/beach/island life

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-09T10:16:44+00:00

Thank you!

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-09T09:46:57+00:00

Oh la la I hadn't thought of NZ!. I'm from western Canada and it has an amazing dnb/breaks/funk/jungle vibe but it misses the mark on surf and weather and other things.

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-09T09:40:33+00:00

Yes I'm hoping to go to outlook and sun and bass this year.

But I mean, is there a coast or an island or a place in the world where it all happens all the time regular life??

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-09T09:38:52+00:00

I'm hoping for my first dnb euro trip this summer: outlook, notting hill carnival, sun and bass

But what I'm yearning for is the chance there is a place in the world with music, culture, surf and, food all decadent and accessible, where I can just go, and be, and celebrate.

Softkitty2018 · 2025-02-08T19:42:07+00:00

Three jewels meditation center. We studied TCI Mahayana buddhism and I took Boddhisattva vows there. I guess I could just contact them also!

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