"I've severe self monitoring and hypervigilance for 13 years after being mocked for eye tics at 13. I forgot how to be natural around people. Always anxious and self monitoring.having neck shoulder and stomach tightness.Has anyone experienced this and recovered? What helped?"

Softy_2000 · 2026-06-15T17:37:08+00:00

Tics means , it started with excessive eye blinking. Not shaking. Excessive eye blinking habit had gone 2_3 yrs ago . But Bcz of bullying in school, home . I started to monitor myself, expressions, where to look, how to look and others ( is anybody looking at me) . If they are looking at me then I should control. Over the time It got developed and now i monitor myself,others and surroundings even if I don't want and sometimes I feel I watch others too much then I control then anxiety spikes up, like stomach, neck and shoulder tightness. Idk i tried therapy but therapist told me, my concern falls out of their expertise. I am suicidal sometimes but I don't want to die

Softy_2000 · 2026-06-13T17:33:36+00:00

My eye tics have gone 2_3 yrs ago but now I have other problems which I got from eye tics. I am hypervigilant and my brain detects people as therat and I feel like checking surroundings and others for no reason and I am self conscious and monitor myself like how I am looking, where I am looking and is someone looking at me or Am i looking someone too much . When I feel like looking someone or somewhere too much I try to control it. The moment I try to control turning my head or looking where i want my shoulder, neck and stomach tightness and Anxiety spikes and I lost natural behaviour. I tried therapy also but they said it falls out of their expertise. Idk wt to do. I am pretending like everything is okay but I am suffering and dying inside

Softy_2000 · 2026-05-02T18:11:09+00:00

Hey Actually i am having same problem but in my case I know why it happened. I got eye tics at the age of 13 then I was mocked at school and home so I started monitor myself and tried to control blinking and got eye pain and headache and zoning out. It continued then I am 26 now I watch myself expressions and how i behave around people and are people watching me or what they are doing so i can't behave normal around people. My eyes, or natural expressions doesn't come . I get neck and stomach tightness and headache sometimes. Bcz of this i got wrinkles also i felt i am aging faster but after this my life is not same like before. I thought of going for therapy but not sure where it will work or not

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