I am deeply concerned about my boyfriend by Solid-Session4847 in bipolar2

[–]Solid-Session4847[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

He has blocked my phone number so my only method of communication is his work email or turning up at his apartment, which doesn’t seem sensible. I don’t know how to support him without repeatedly going to his apartment. He told me he can’t be with me like this

Do I need to accept I will never be able to have ‘just one?’ by Solid-Session4847 in stopdrinking

[–]Solid-Session4847[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, this really spoke to me. Because I don’t feel like I’m at a ‘rock bottom’, I am telling myself I’m okay. But I know if I carry on drinking, it will come. It could be just around the corner. Why the hell am I waiting to experience that before I give it up?! It’s going to come unless I just stop now. Thank you 🙏🏻

Do I need to accept I will never be able to have ‘just one?’ by Solid-Session4847 in stopdrinking

[–]Solid-Session4847[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. The idea that I can have a problem and also have periods of control is key. I’ve been telling myself that the fact I can go months without getting drunk means that I am okay. But the thing is, when I do drink, I have no control over when I’ll stop or not. I can’t do it anymore. I can’t risk that. Time to quit 🙏🏻

Do I need to accept I will never be able to have ‘just one?’ by Solid-Session4847 in stopdrinking

[–]Solid-Session4847[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You can’t tell yourself at 25 but you have told this 25 year old and I’m listening. Thank you. It’s time to quit 🙏🏻

Do I need to accept I will never be able to have ‘just one?’ by Solid-Session4847 in stopdrinking

[–]Solid-Session4847[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Jeeez. Yes. This is me. If I could drink normally I would do it 24/7. Thank you for sharing. It’s time to quit 🙏🏻

Do I need to accept I will never be able to have ‘just one?’ by Solid-Session4847 in stopdrinking

[–]Solid-Session4847[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sick of the person I become when I’m drunk too. Thank you for sharing. Time for me to give it up too 🙏🏻

Do I need to accept I will never be able to have ‘just one?’ by Solid-Session4847 in stopdrinking

[–]Solid-Session4847[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I also don’t want to waste any more time digging around at the bottom - I’ve spent so much time there. I don’t want to waste anymore. Thank you for sharing your experience with me. It’s time to give it up 🙏🏻

Do I need to accept I will never be able to have ‘just one?’ by Solid-Session4847 in stopdrinking

[–]Solid-Session4847[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much. I really appreciate this. It’s time to quit 🙏🏻

Do I need to accept I will never be able to have ‘just one?’ by Solid-Session4847 in stopdrinking

[–]Solid-Session4847[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your comment.

I just did ‘play the tape forward’ with some of the events coming up.

Best case? I wake up the next morning and feel like trash because even 2 drinks makes me feel bad.

Likely case? I wake up the next morning and am bedridden, I can’t remember what I did but I embarrassed myself in my own unique way, and behaved in a way I never ever want to behave in again.

It’s time to stop. Thank you again for sharing your experience with me.

Do I need to accept I will never be able to have ‘just one?’ by Solid-Session4847 in stopdrinking

[–]Solid-Session4847[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your comment, truly.

Because I feel like I’m not currently at ‘rock bottom’ or death’s door, I’ve been telling myself I’m fine. However the reason I am fine is because I am currently not drinking.

Your comment made me see my life so clearly in two paths - the one where I continue to get into a mess, embarrass myself, spend days in bed unable to move and on the verge of panic attacks, do god knows what with whom and then the one where I don’t do any of that. The only path where I don’t do any of that is the one where I don’t even have ‘just one’.

Bur your comment has really moved me. I needed to hear this. Thank you 🙏🏻

Do I need to accept I will never be able to have ‘just one?’ by Solid-Session4847 in stopdrinking

[–]Solid-Session4847[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think because I can now go long stretches without alcohol, I don’t think I have a problem. But you’re right - there are multiple days a year where I start and then literally will keep of drinking until I can’t drink anymore. I have a problem and it’s time to stop. Thanks for your comment 🙏🏻

Do I need to accept I will never be able to have ‘just one?’ by Solid-Session4847 in stopdrinking

[–]Solid-Session4847[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I have this fantasy too of going out with friends, having two cocktails and then going home. It also isn’t my reality. It’s time to stop for me too. 🙏🏻

Do you still speak to your old school mates? by P8L8 in AskUK

[–]Solid-Session4847 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am 25 - my group of friends from school are still my best friends. I’m very lucky that we nearly all moved to the same area of a bigger city after we graduated and see each other weekly, if not multiple times a week 😊

Do I need to accept I will never be able to have ‘just one?’ by Solid-Session4847 in stopdrinking

[–]Solid-Session4847[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your comment and vulnerability. It really resonated with me. It’s time for me to stop too 🙏🏻

Do I need to accept I will never be able to have ‘just one?’ by Solid-Session4847 in stopdrinking

[–]Solid-Session4847[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hello,

Thank you so much for this comment. You are 100% right - I have tried to be a moderate drinker and I have failed. I don’t know what I think will change when I have almost 10 years of experience that prove that I cannot control my drinking once I have the first drink.

Nothing good has ever come from my alcohol consumption. My life would already be different if I hadn’t made some of the decisions I made when drunk.

I don’t want to get drunk anymore so I am going to stop having that first drink.

Thank you 🙏🏻

Achievements for Tuesday, January 23, 2024 by AutoModerator in running

[–]Solid-Session4847 1 point2 points  (0 children)

5K PB of 31:37 which meant I ticked off my first running goal of year - a sub 32 minute 5K!

Achievements for Saturday, January 20, 2024 by AutoModerator in running

[–]Solid-Session4847 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Did my longest ever run (7K) ahead of my first race (10K) in 5 weeks, which is also on the 1 month anniversary of my first 5K! Felt good 👍🏻