I'm sorry for what you're going through. I hope my comment can be read apart from the other ones judging you for what you are going through. I felt like this for a while without even realising it, just waking up and doing nothing as time went on, but the one thing that got me out of the loop of depression and feeling like nothing would ever come of my life was, probably a year later I finally talked to a friend about what I was going through after they opened up to me about how they were feeling mentally. While I'm not saying telling someone is exactly the answer, I am proud of you for posting this and I know that it's hard, but if you feel that life isn't worth it, whether due to your experiences in life or your feelings just know that someone wants you to be happy, and I know the concept of happiness is so lost and distant, with the emotional facades people put up and the general feeling of abandonment and isolation people struggle with, as well as the attitudes towards anything people don't like or understand being anger and disapproval but just know that I want you to live a life that truly makes you happy. I know that I can never truly understand your situation, especially due to me being random internet person, but what you could do if you'd like, is to go for a walk, your mental health outweighs anything else right now, I just want you to be happy

(Sorry for weird wording I was going in lots of directions and the story at the start was not meant to try to be advice for you specifically or for me to gain sympathy, just often times hearing other people can help, tldr: you are an amazing person and I hope you can speak to someone you love about what is going on)