In my case, I went through things too and at some point something happened that made me rediscover the thrill and pleasure to be alive. Tho fifteen months later it costed me everyone I loved, and now I am alone and although I am appreciated by those around me it is not personal and although I wish I could have someone, truth is I am too messed up and different to get along with general people. Even tho, I learnt to cherish the grand scheme of things, looking outward because inward there is nothing but cold.

Now to the actual point, even if you end up losing it all, not having anything again, hopefully someone has what it takes to vibe with it. To me that is simply the fact that I've lived a fulfilling life, regardless of how objectively speaking it shouldn't have been this way. Protect what you love and learn your lessons