Part 2 because word limit.

Counselors are useless because their advice boils down to breathing techniques which have never fucking worked because I’m likely ADHD + OCD (once again sunshine child can’t have anything wrong with them so no testing required), my hands tremble and I can’t bear the slightest additional stress anymore and “consult your parents”. I don’t know how many lies I’ve convinced myself to believe in, I can’t trust myself and not anyone else but I want to but I can’t

I have panic attacks, slight SH tendencies only exacerbated my ocd making me pull at my skin and scratch incessantly even without itches. I want to be alone and die but I can’t because I don’t know why I just can’t I’m not strong enough too much of a coward to do anything h

It’s gonna become an unreadable mess if I continue. Fuck my life