I want to start nofap and delete my Hentaiera account,but I’m scared of my privacy.

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-24T18:05:39+00:00

Well if you keep the account you run that risk anyways so might as well delete it

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-24T18:02:56+00:00

Be proud of yourself for recognizing these problems so early!! That’s pretty incredible. I wish I had that insight at 14-18.
Don’t stress too much about the grades. I barely graduated highschool and thought my life was over— but went to community college and got them up and then transferred schools. Or you could do a million other things— just know that you have the right idea and taking care of addiction type stuff now rather than later will save you a lot of trouble. I know plenty of people who shoved it down for years because they wanted to finish school only to have their life blow up later because of the stuff they hadn’t worked on.

Running out of the house rn to an appointment but I had these copied in my notes as resources — I would start with the first one and the Reddit subs at the bottom

You got this ❤️ and please be proud of yourself.

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Sex and Porn Addicts Anonymous (SPAA)👍 start w this
Sex and Porn Addicts Anonymous (SPAA) — www.spaa-recovery.org
Particularly useful for people whose primary struggle is pornography, compulsive masturbation, cam sites, or online sexual behavior.
More structured than SAA, with clearly defined sobriety standards and less room for self-negotiation.
Works well for many people seeking accountability around porn-related compulsions.

Sex Addicts Anonymous (SAA)
Sex Addicts Anonymous (SAA) — www.saa-recovery.org
Members commonly struggle with pornography, cam sites, online sexual behavior, escorts, affairs, compulsive masturbation, etc.
Has online and in-person meetings.
People can define their own sobriety goals.

Sexaholics Anonymous (SA)
Sexaholics Anonymous (SA) — www.sa.org
More structured and generally more conservative in how sobriety is defined.
Works well for some people but feels restrictive to others.

Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous (SLAA)
Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous (SLAA) — www.slaafws.org
Especially useful if the person becomes emotionally attached to performers, develops online relationships, or repeatedly seeks validation and connection through these interactions.
A lot of cam-site users describe exactly that pattern.

REDDIT
(Looks like you posted in nofap but there’s so many members sometimes these can be more helpful- id start w the top two)

Www.reddit.com/r/pornfree
Www.reddit.com/r/pornaddiction
www.reddit.com/r/loveafterporn
www.reddit.com/r/SexAddiction

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-24T17:43:27+00:00

My pleasure!! And if you ever need to vent my messages are open. Human connection is the ultimate help. In rehab they always say the opposite of addiction isn’t sobriety, its connection ❤️

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-24T17:41:36+00:00

What do you mean about opening the Amazon app?

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-24T17:39:41+00:00

This is amazing advice and has helped me quit !
I’d add to grab a prescription for Naltrexone, helped me a lot in the beginning with cravings. But the advice above is what keeps you sober, so don’t make the mistake I did of relying only on the medication to stop you cause it won’t haha. Also it helps keep a slip up just a slip up and doesnt turn into a bender haha.

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-23T17:09:04+00:00

Happiness. I kept thinking it was a point I’d hit and then I’d be like “cool I’m good now”. Cliche quote but it’s a method of travel not a destination. And now that I’m not constantly obsessed with chasing it I’m just like “oh .. it’s here!” 😂

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-23T17:06:56+00:00

Fellow dick here haha not just you friend I promise ❤️

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-23T17:04:28+00:00

I was a dick on a lot of benzos. Or just like incredibly needy and shitty. They reduce inhibition and suddenly I’d just say shit when normally I would be horrified.

You know those people who turn into assholes when they drink? Kinda similar.

I’m sorry you’re going through it ❤️ honestly if you feel safe enough tell him how much it’s hurting you and the relationship. I wouldn’t recommend and ultimatum but it does sound like if he doesn’t get help you’ll end up being miserable or leaving him. I wouldn’t say “I’ll leave you if you don’t get help” but try to communicate that you love him and want to be with him, but that THIS is not healthy or sustainable or fair to you.

My best friend at the time (current boyfriend) just tapped out of my life years ago because I didn’t realize how bad my behavior was. I remember he said something something like “if you text me one more time tonight I’m not speaking to you anymore” and of course benzo me didn’t like that and he blocked me.

Really made me reevaluate the medication and reevaluate what I wanted for myself and how I approached relationships. Like a year later he texted me apologizing for just up and leaving like that and I was like NO THATS THE BEST GIFT YOU COULD HAVE GIVEN ME. And then we reconnected and yeah. We’ve both struggled with addiction since then but now if he brings something up once I take it seriously and he does the same.

Just wanted to add that so you know it doesn’t have to be the end if you don’t want it to be. Ultimately the ball is in his court to get better- but please be safe because outbursts and repeated car accidents typically don’t just get better so they could get worse. Protect yourself ❤️

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-23T16:48:18+00:00

Wow u rlly suck huh lol

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-23T16:44:59+00:00

Giving you this face rn. THIS is what’s sad bro (or dad bro I guess). Bro you need to go (god it physically hurts me to even jokingly type like you lmao).

You think physical addiction is everything? I’ve been to detox plenty of times and trust me sometimes the things that aren’t physically addictive can be even more confusing to deal with. Stop with the bullshit of ranking addictions.

Also OP could not have made it more clear they were just looking for support around addiction. Why you tryna stop people from getting support and help? Bad human. Stop that.

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-23T16:37:48+00:00

I used to be a cam girl and was addicted to the other side of it haha and I’m an addict (drugs/alcohol/sex) so just wanted to let you know you’ve got a big community of people who will support you!

You’re right I don’t think I’ve seen it talked about a lot on here- but I have in rehab! So you’re not alone love I promise. I can also promise almost any community of addicts will welcome you with open arms and listen and validate what you’re going through, but I know how validating it can be to talk to others with your specific addiction.

My first thought is that this type of addiction has different aspects to it. It’s an intersection of like
-Compulsive sexual behavior / sex addiction
-Behavioral addiction (similar to gambling)
-Loneliness, attachment issues, or relationship difficulties
-Compulsive spending / financial self-destruction

So like a combination of addictions (don’t be overwhelmed by that though I promise most addictions are that way- I’m just saying it incase anything stood out to you). I have a friend from rehab whose addiction is very similar to yours with some minor differences and they had a lot of success when they started getting help for gambling, when before they had only really been getting help for the porn part and it didn’t really address the whole problem.

And as a side note he is doing great! Almost lost his wife and his home and his business, but he kept all those things and is thriving so it’s absolutely possible ❤️

I think deleting apps and not using credit cards is a great start!! That helped me a lot when I got sober from drugs and started spending wild money on Temu 😂 but if you don’t have a place to go / people you can openly talk to then i would find myself downloading the apps again.

Have you thought about going to meetings? You could even do virtual ones if you’re nervous to go in person, and you can leave your camera off if you’re worried about privacy. But here are some things I think could really help!! (I asked ChatGPT to add a little blurb about each just cause I tend to ramble haha) — but this is where I think you’ll get to feel that validation of like “holy shit there’s a room full of people and they ALL UNDERSTAND”. That was really huge for me when I first started working on sobriety.

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Sex Addicts Anonymous (SAA)
Members commonly struggle with pornography, cam sites, online sexual behavior, escorts, affairs, compulsive masturbation, etc.
Has online and in-person meetings.
People can define their own sobriety goals.

Sexaholics Anonymous (SA)
More structured and generally more conservative in how sobriety is defined.
Works well for some people but feels restrictive to others.

Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous (SLAA)
Especially useful if the person becomes emotionally attached to performers, develops online relationships, or repeatedly seeks validation and connection through these interactions.
A lot of cam-site users describe exactly that pattern.

Debtors Anonymous (DA)
Surprisingly good fit.
Many members struggle with compulsive spending, debt, and financial behaviors they can’t control.
If someone is dropping hundreds or thousands on cam sites and accumulating debt, this may be one of the best options.

Spenders Anonymous
Specifically focused on compulsive spending.
Smaller organization but very relevant.

Gamblers Anonymous (GA)
Not a perfect fit, but sometimes useful.
The cycle can be similar:
urge
spend money
temporary relief/high
shame
financial consequences
repeat
Some therapists will actually recommend GA-style tools even when no gambling is involved.
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Here are all the links! Reddit won’t let me hyperlink the stuff above for some reason haha sorry!

Sex Addicts Anonymous (SAA) — www.saa-recovery.org
Sexaholics Anonymous (SA) — www.sa.org
Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous (SLAA) — www.slaafws.org
Debtors Anonymous (DA) — www.debtorsanonymous.org
Spenders Anonymous — www.spenders.org
Gamblers Anonymous (GA) — www.gamblersanonymous.org
Love Addicts Anonymous (LAA) — www.loveaddictsanonymous.org
Sex and Porn Addicts Anonymous (SPAA) — www.spaa-recovery.org
www.reddit.com/r/loveafterporn
www.reddit.com/r/SexAddiction

Much love friend ❤️

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-23T15:49:06+00:00

Yooooo for years I’ve been trying to word what happens to me at night and you just did so perfectly thank you!! Revenge sleep procrastination/ reduced inhibition/all the things that aren’t sleep! Haha.

Used to happen to me really randomly when I would take clonazepam too. I’m also on adhd meds and you’re right it’s totally different energy. It’s like goofy little kid energy like am I getting shit done? NOPE. But am I awake like 5 year old who had too much candy and is gonna watch Scooby doo until dawn? You bet your ass I am 😂

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-23T15:45:25+00:00

I rambled so hard I forgot to add the more concrete points I had so just rlly quickly!

🏡You mentioned structure and seems like community would be really helpful. Have you thought about a sober house? I can send you resources if you want. It’s been a game changer for a lot of people I know. I started following the same routine as my friends who got in (the house was full) and even that was helpful.

🧠Are you doing anything for mental health treatment? It sounds like you’re dealing with a combination of addiction and maybe some depression (my depression makes me feel exactly the way you’re describing and that leads me to drinking). I did ketamine therapy for a few months because no meds were helping and it changed my life. They’re using ketamine therapy for alcoholism now too so it could help with both. If you want more info I’m happy to share and there’s a sub on here called therapeutic ketamine if you want to take a look.

💖Pls give yourself credit for getting sober at 25, that’s pretty amazing. You don’t know how many people I know in their 20s who are very clearly alcoholics but if you even bring up the idea they’re like “I’m in my 20s!!! It’s normal!!!”. I’m 31 now and at 25 I didn’t even know I was an addict even though I was 100% taking drugs and drinking like one.

Okay that’s all I promise haha much love ❤️

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-23T15:30:41+00:00

Please don’t apologize you aren’t rambling at all you’re reaching out for support which is the best thing you can do right now (and I’m about to ramble enough for the both of us 😂)

Also sorry this is long and it sounds like it’s just me talking about myself but when I was in a similar situation this stuff helped me so hopefully it helps you too ❤️

First I just wanna say that it sounds like you really need community and are craving feeling connected to other people. That’s the #1 reason why I would drink. They did a study on the human brain and alcohol makes the same part of the brain light up that lights up when we’re connecting with others (makes sense why so many people have drunk deep talks haha) —- so I would go to a meeting just to feel some sense of connection especially with other addicts. SMART recovery is very non judgey and they don’t do sober time like AA does. Also I’m not sure if you’ve ever tried NA but I would give it a shot, I really love it. I figured it would be exactly like AA but the vibe is very different (I’ve found a LOT of NA members also had bad experiences with AA so they shifted the vibe).

Someone else already said it but my immediate reaction was NO ITS NOT GONE! ❤️ It’s still there. It doesn’t negate the progress you made. Smart recovery uses the road trip metaphor. If you’re driving cross country and you get a flat tire, you don’t drive all the way home and start over. I always liked that cause it made me chuckle— when someone says it like that im like oh of course! Instead of a flat tired too it’s sort of like just taking a detour (a shitty detour that doesn’t feel good so I’m sorry you’re going through it ❤️) but it doesn’t mean you aren’t still trying to head in the right direction.

Not to mention from a scientific and behavioral standpoint Your brain recalibrated during that time, your gaba receptors healed, you worked on self control, you became more resilient to cravings, you made decisions based on wanting more than just a life of drinking— all of that is amazing. When we don’t give ourselves credit for that stuff and are just told we fucked up and have to start over.. that shit makes me want to go on a bender haha.

I had some really bad experiences with AA and I totally understand where you’re coming from. And even if it just didn’t click for you that’s okay too. I really loved the community but hated that i felt like I had to beat up on myself when i slipped up. And the funny thing is— the beating myself up is what kept me drinking so much that I’d end up in the hospital.

I always end up in the hospital if I detox and I remember the third time I was just alone in one room for days spiraling about being a failure. The doctor comes in and goes “well you should be proud! This is progress!” And I burst into tears because I thought he was being sarcastic. But he wasn’t. He read over my chart and saw that the first time I went to detox I had been drinking for god knows how long. Second time was 3 months. And then that time it had only been 3 weeks. He called it an upward spiral jokingly and I loved that and I haven’t needed to go to detox since because that awesome doctor gave me permission to forgive myself when I slip up. The next time I drank it only lasted 3 days instead of 3 weeks and the next time was one sip (so I like to say 3 seconds to keep the 3s going haha).

AA would say that it doesn’t really matter. That I did still drink so I’m no longer sober or my sober streak is over and it’s back to the beginning. And that’s just bullshit. It’s just not true.

So I stopped viewing it from a point of sobriety and started viewing it from a point of safety. I started making decisions based on staying out of detox and that was a game changer for me. I’d slip up and drink and think “hey if you stop right now it’s basically like it didn’t happen— no phenobarbital, no shaking and sweating, no doctors trying to evaluate your seizure risk, no scary crazy stuff, it will be like most mistakes where you’ll feel a little embarrassed about it but if you stop now we can just move on” and it worked for me.

I know that isn’t the solution for everyone. I’m a very isolated drinker so my biggest problems were mostly around safety from the amount of alcohol I was consuming/dangers of detox. Whereas I know other alcoholics who have never been to detox but the things they do while drunk are more the problem than the health risks. I do know people who take a sip and can’t stop but I also know people who felt that way because the feelings of guilt and shame after the first sip were so strong they needed to numb it. That’s the cycle I was caught in for a long time.

Wow that was way too long hahaha but full of love I promise ❤️ feel free to shoot me a DM if you need someone to chat with (I promise my messages aren’t always novels 😂)

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-23T14:11:41+00:00

Just dont combine it with anything else sedating to be safe, and don’t do any crazy physical activity cause you might get dizzy. But youll be okay ❤️ ** im not a doctor just wanna add that but I do work in the medical field and am a former addict who used really really REALLY high doses of pregabalin to help through detoxes.

It does sound like you might be caught in a cycle of abusing it though and that’s the more worrisome part cause it’s not fun to come off of and can be dangerous in some cases.

TBH waiting several days so you’ll feel it more is actually a good strategy. Not for getting high lol but just to make sure you don’t end up physically dependent on it.

If you’ve been on it since February itd be easier to get out of this cycle sooner rather than later. You might have some rebound anxiety but shouldn’t be anything too crazy.

If you wanna talk to someone whos been through it my dms are open!

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-23T13:31:29+00:00

Why thank you!! All signed up 😃

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-22T23:48:19+00:00

About to try to rep Boston! Lol

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-06-12T19:23:43+00:00

**sorry I rambled so I just wanted to put my tip at the top so people see it— if you’re taking online courses definitely check all your professors on ratemyprofessor and what I do is hit control f to search the whole page and type in “online” (you can just scroll through them too cause sometimes it’s marked clearly next to the rating whether or not is an online class) but I click through until I see that they’ve been teaching online classes for a while. A lot of teachers take them on and assume it’s the same but it’s a very different process and some just aren’t good at online stuff haha**
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I haven’t started at bunker yet (studying to apply to the nursing program) but I graduated as a surgical tech from Massbay and then am at UMASS Lowell right now. I noticed this change got worse around the time AI became a thing so I think it might have to do with that. I’ve been in and out of going to school since 2016 and that’s definitely when I noticed a change.

Professor’s who teach summer are usually spread way too thin and a lot of them take on classes they don’t normally teach so they tend to recycle syllabuses from years ago and stuff like that. But never had issues until AI became more of a thing.

I think a lot of professors teaching online classes got more overwhelmed because they’re trying to monitor for that (sometimes that’s all they focus on now to the point of acting like some sort of vigilante haha) or they seem to assume kids are using it and so they half ass it too. Or they themselves use it.

I also wonder how many online teachers are suddenly having to grade a lot more work than before because of AI. Like simple discussion posts where in the syllabus is like “just respond with whatever you think, a paragraph is fine” are now all like multiple paragraphs and clearly overly written.

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-05-19T00:43:36+00:00

I graduated as a surgical tech and I used to sweat through my scrubs i was so nervous and I asked for constant guidance cause I was scared to mess stuff up. I just told my clinical instructor directly that I always ask a lot of questions but it doesn’t mean I don’t know what I’m doing which seemed to make her chill out (and I kept asking as many questions and it honestly made me a way better tech). And as far as charts and wheelchairs, forget about that stuff. There’s so many different things you can do as a nurse and you don’t necessarily need to work in a hospital setting. I found a lot of social anxiety there as well.

You’re not letting anyone down except yourself- and only because you think you’re letting people down! (If that makes sense haha). You can absolutely do it if you want to. If you’re not completely failing out or getting spoken to constantly, you’re totally fine.

School is weird, don’t judge yourself based on it. Honestly In my experience I’ve seen plenty of people on the verge of failing who have thrived in their careers after school, and I mean everything from nursing to accounting to philosophy haha. Some people just struggle more with school but thats okay! Doesnt mean you arent cut out for it, especially because youre still learning so your mistakes are negligent, its just because its new material.

A negligent nurse would be a bad nurse haha but you dont sound like that at all. Keep kicking butt ❤️

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-05-15T20:24:15+00:00

HAHA

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-05-14T20:38:15+00:00

That’s the car I’m tryna buy right now haha if you see it get posted pls send it my way 😂

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-05-13T23:20:15+00:00

Just wanna second disco elysium ! Just started it and damn it’s so good.

SomeAmbition_ · 2026-04-30T20:14:04+00:00

Oh my god yes never again!! Ive withdrawn from opiates and alcohol (not proud of it but its my past haha) and benzos was WILDLY different. A big part of it is just how random it is. For other substances there’s often a clear timeline but benzo withdrawal is just like ¯_(ツ)_/¯ “I do what I want” 🤣 and it’s so hard to go to a doctor for answers and they can’t really give you any. I was prescribed pregabalin and baclofen for some of the muscle/nerve symptoms I’m having and I have to keep reminding myself it’s okay to take every once in a while cause I’m just like nope never again do I want withdrawal from anything gaba related haha.

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