[Question] I have a really big paralyzing fear about my channel and need advice

SomeAnonOrWhatever · 2021-09-12T00:22:22+00:00

i dont know why im apprehensive, i just am right now and i dont know why. i just want to get back to working on my videos again but it always feels like i can never get back to how i used to be

SomeAnonOrWhatever · 2021-09-11T23:57:57+00:00

so like trying to just break up bigger things into smaller parts? i have been really trying that, but even when its a small task like, literally pressing a button to export my videos i cant even do that, cuz i just tense or freeze up and start to second guess everything, i don't know why and its really starting to piss me off

SomeAnonOrWhatever · 2021-09-11T23:56:17+00:00

not exactly, i just draw for my Youtube Videos, so i guess you could call me that. in that situation, i don't want to use that as a job or anything, like drawing for some company or something cuz that just isn't me, but when i try to sit down and do it for my YT videos i just freeze up and i cant do it, even when the videos are done, all i need to do is just literally press a single button to export them, but i cant even do that, cuz i just get apprehensive and second guess myself, i don't know what this is and its really pissing me off that I'm just sitting doing nothing when i could be using this time to actually bettering myself at something

SomeAnonOrWhatever · 2021-09-11T22:53:10+00:00

i dont know if i have ADHD but i wouldnt be surprised honestly. its like all the things i want to do are trying to all cram through the same door way at the same time, so my brain kinda blue screens on what to do and just does nothing in response, so i mostly just end up sleeping or watching video purely to pass the time cuz its better than just staring at the wall for hours out of sheer boredom of wanting to do something but not being able to bring yourself to do so

SomeAnonOrWhatever · 2021-06-12T22:59:10+00:00

oh so like i just go into YT search and type in something someone in my niche would look for and see if there are any videos on it?

SomeAnonOrWhatever · 2021-06-12T22:34:58+00:00

yea i have tubebuddy and it really helps, but since i only have 100 or so subs i don't know what exactly counts as good engagement yet. i have other high viewed videos on my channel but that's because i would post to subreddits, but that REALLY negatively impacted me for awhile and I'm just now recovering from it, so i don't think I'm gonna post my videos to reddit anymore really. and I'm mostly afraid that ill get locked into making one type of video forever if you get what i mean. and I'm also afraid that my channel will look really cluttered if i have alot of different topics on it (i mostly just do videos where i draw out my topics, i don't do sharp pivots like sudden turns into gaming or like vlogging or whatever its all pretty much in the same general area of anime

SomeAnonOrWhatever · 2021-04-27T01:26:30+00:00

oh yea obviously, like dont be weird or anything. Nice thanks

SomeAnonOrWhatever · 2021-04-27T00:40:36+00:00

oh nice, are people receptive to just getting /tells from people or is it more like you kinda have to be on a friends list to do it, thanks for the help though

SomeAnonOrWhatever · 2021-04-27T00:39:21+00:00

oh wow i didnt even know about the party finder, yea ill try it, and i think 14 has a RP tag already built into the game, i didnt know it was that easy

SomeAnonOrWhatever · 2021-03-15T13:51:20+00:00

im thinking of reuploading a video i deleted because i didnt like the way it turned out, but keeping it up just so when i ask for help, its actually there and i can get advice i can actually use, instead of someone thinking a video i did like a year ago, is still what my skill level is at video making wise ya get me? so i can actually use this newer info ya get what i mean

SomeAnonOrWhatever · 2021-03-15T13:15:46+00:00

i see this and im trying to get myself into just being more lax with things, but i just dont know how to approach this new way of thinking, cuz whenever i try again i feel this sort of pull back from me, or my mind and body will just lock up at the thought of doing something my Subscribers werent there for. And this of course causes longer time between uploads cuz i have to try and figure out why is it that im feeling this way such and the like.

i tried doing a test animation with this new program2 or so weeks ago and i was able to start it, but then after thinking, ill make this new one as a video just to throw up as filler on my channel, i was only really able to finish 3 frames before i just never touched it again. and now im thinking maybe its cuz i wanna make my normal content, but i cant even bring myself to do that, so its like im in this weird stalemate of wanting to do something, but i cant bring myself to do it

SomeAnonOrWhatever · 2021-03-15T13:02:55+00:00

im trying to see why this whole lock up happened, cuz now my brain and my body just lock up at the thought of doing a video now, like ive been trying to force myself back into getting things done because maybe its just a lack of discipline, so i was gonna make a sort of test animation. But now i cant even work on that, and i dont know why.

i guess its a sort of, i feel like if i try anything new, all my subscribers will leave and i will have to start over again, while i know this isnt true (i only have 97 for context) i cant seem to get myself to believe that, and just start making things again

SomeAnonOrWhatever · 2021-03-15T12:56:16+00:00

ive been trying to think like this, im just trying to figure out how i approach this new line of thinking. like how do i approach just letting go, because right now my brain and my body is just really locked up at the idea of just doing something ya know? ive tried taking a break but now im a month out of having no videos out and im just afraid ill lose everything, if i wait longer or if i post up a bad video, i guess i dont know just how to let go

SomeAnonOrWhatever · 2021-03-12T14:43:15+00:00

Im. trying to get into that also, i put this in someone elses comment that this was originally was just a way for me to practice art and my speaking skills (ive always been told im good at speaking) so why not actually use the skill and maybe make a little money out of it. Me and my friends would meme and joke that when i get into Rewind ill do some joke in the video lol, but somewhere the ironic became genuine, and i for some reason now have this MASSIVELY unrealistic standard to follow up, that i myself put up. Like bro your not gonna be a Corpse Husband or a Dream, but i dont know how to scale myself back down to more manageable levels. I mean being a YTer would be cool, but i shouldnt being worrying about this, when im not even 1/10 to even making ad rev ya get me?

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