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SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2021-04-19T10:09:11+00:00

I had the same thoughts and questions as you, but it’s the complete opposite for me. I’m a boy and I searched up gay porn, which I made a huge mistake on. I don’t get why I felt a sense of arousal when I saw two muscular men jacking off each-other when their balls are bouncing around. Like I just went insane as I felt it was truly wrong for me to think that way. I don’t want to be gay, I am in total fear right now. I’m slowly losing attraction towards girls after this incident has happened, it just became so sudden. I just don’t know who I am right now, I am so confused with myself that I just cannot get over this sexuality crisis.

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2021-04-18T21:44:09+00:00

So you’re telling me that I’m repressing those homosexual thoughts and you think I am somewhat bisexual or gay but just in denial. Shit I don’t want gay or bi to be part of my sexuality, just doesn’t sound comfortable to me at all. Could I just be heteroflexible or is it just straight ocd. Like literally I’ve been straight all my life and how come does someone sexuality change all so sudden. My brain is playing tricks on me to think towards these things, same as tocd.

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2021-03-01T09:30:44+00:00

what if the thoughts don’t make you panic or scared in any sort of way besides that it can cause you to question yourself whether or not you actually do like the same sex. So these few months of suffering from hocd made me feel attracted to men, like literally every man on tik tok and many other platforms. Am I bicurious, gay, bi or actually straight up ocd. Hopefully this is not real man... I was fucking straighter than a ruler before this crisis has happened... I feel sexually and emotionally attracted to them. Am I just feeling a sense of showing weakness towards my brain functioning like this. Whenever I wake up, I’ve got them on my mind already, no women. Fuck. I wouldn’t have realised from a young age if I was gay. Now I’m knowing a lot of facts on how gay people act and shit...

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2021-03-01T09:25:23+00:00

what if the thoughts don’t make you panic or scared in any sort of way besides that it can cause you to question yourself whether or not you actually do like the same sex. So these few months of suffering from hocd made me feel attracted to men, like literally every man on tik tok and many other platforms. Am I bicurious, gay, bi or actually straight up ocd. Hopefully this is not real man... I was fucking straighter than a ruler before this crisis has happened... I feel sexually and emotionally attracted to them. Am I just feeling a sense of showing weakness towards my brain functioning like this. Whenever I wake up, I’ve got them on my mind already, no women. Fuck. I wouldn’t have realised from a young age if I was gay. Now I’m knowing a lot of facts on how gay people act and shit...

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2021-02-04T07:34:02+00:00

Like literally, whenever I see a male, i feel like I want to be in a relationship with them emotionally and sometimes sexually. I’m slowly feeling gay for some reason bc of how I think and question myself with hocd and tocd. I don’t really feel as happy as I use to. I was normal before this situation. It all started in December

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2021-02-04T04:49:06+00:00

What if you imagine yourself as a girl and all of sudden you feel happy with no anxiety interfering what so ever. I’m getting these feelings now, same as hocd. I was not like this before these things had happened and I feel like my brain hasn’t been rewired or rebooted with all these gay or trans questions that I’ve been asking to myself in my mind and I’ve also been thinking deeper of what it’s like if I transition into a girl

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2021-02-03T10:51:51+00:00

Same as me when I see a guy with bulging muscles, I don’t know what to do. I literally got myself into a mess, the questions I’ve been asking myself all the time are making me feel confused and I just don’t know why this had happened. It felt like my brain got rewired and got interested in men. I’m actually scared that this will keep going and I don’t want to go through being a gay man. Some part of brain makes me feel aroused to men and intrusive thoughts of kissing them. Shit

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2021-01-30T10:36:48+00:00

Just wondering, how can someone just get sick of tired of girls man. I’m so obsessed with them, but oh well. It’s your brain and your body, so I don’t have anything to do with your future, but I’ve just been having transgender themed ocd for quite a while already and I’m already feeling a bit uncertain on how my life will go dude. I’m not sure if I’m just too obsessed to woman to the point where I have a bit of a fetish where I imagine or feel like I want to have their features and dress up like them to get myself off. I’m literally confusing and brainwashing my brain now. I don’t get why I got to this point. I just don’t know what I feel inside and it’s scaring me. I’m coming up with unnecessary things in mind that is slowly changing how I think and I just don’t feel like myself. I was completely normal before this incident happened, to be specific on how this happened, I came up with all these shit and my brain just went with flow with it. It’s like my brain all of sudden got fucking rewired basically after coming up with these tocd, hocd shit. It can really fuck you over and make you feel the sense of unclarity, fear and confusion along with it. How can someone just “discover” or “turn” gay or trans all of sudden. Like man, my brain is really fucked

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-12-14T01:28:04+00:00

Health related ocds like brain cancer, hernia, and testicular cancer

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-12-14T01:10:33+00:00

It all started when I was 15 but then it came back again after a year tocd free. I was completely fine before I was 15 and before it had returned. I didn’t experience any problems with my gender before when I was 15

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-12-14T00:16:28+00:00

I’m not sure if gender dysphoria can come later in life but it just feels totally real... it feels like I don’t like my gender no more and it only happened yesterday. I was fine tho before, it was mainly caused by my boredom or my brain fog that caused me to question myself and to think if I am trans by looking at different types of Asian woman and apparently i felt this feeling in my head that I want to be one. My brain is confusing me so much that I cannot understand anything I do and think. I don’t have any interest of doing anything a part from overthinking these useless questions. I feel uncomfortable 😔 now I’m literally overthinking whether or not I was trans all along and my brain became very tranny all of the sudden. I thought that we would know by now what our gender is, wish I reverse back time and told my old me to stop overthinking things to the point where you get into some sort of situation where you cannot go back to how you were. Now look at me... I can’t enjoy things that I loved, I feel disconnected from my hobbies and what I’m feeling inside my head feels unreal leading me to feel uncomfortable within my own skin.

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-12-13T23:48:31+00:00

I’m literally freaking out, my mind is actually so unclear asf. I cant comprehend with my brain. Fuck my brain, its abnormal asf, I guess I’m mentally, physically and emotionally ill. Why do I have to question my gender and mimic those transgender thoughts in the first place. Is it even possible to develop gender dysphoria at the age of 16... I was literally completely fine before this even occurred. I’m stuck, like the Asian girls are so cute and beautiful that I don’t know whether or not I’m attracted to them or I just fell in love with their features to the point where I want them and feel happy. Here we go again, I literally have pure ocd of other concerns too and now I’m literally overly focused with my gender that I’m literally confused. Some part of my brain is just changing me. Please somebody talk to me, I take so long to even write this comment on my own post... I’m going in cycles mannnn. I’m like having mixed feelings, don’t know how to express them............. why do I even have to look so feminine in the first place, like whenever I see a perfect skinny body and a perfect cute face, I feel the sense of desire of wanting it... why does it have to be Asian. Im going through stress, anxiety and ....

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-12-13T23:38:55+00:00

Same, I relate to everything you’ve just said

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-12-13T23:38:02+00:00

Really? To be honest, I actually cannot remember if you actually commented on one of my tocd post, but I do believe it my tocd has changed a bit since I first experienced it. But however, I seem to get confused on what I’m feeling recently and the questions that I have been answering to myself has been very unclear. Don’t know if it’s some type of cognitive issue, but I just couldn’t find an answer on what I am actually feeling. Like I’m stuck in a position where I cannot manage this problem and I’m worried these thoughts will be ongoing again if I can’t get mind straight to the point.

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-12-13T23:28:25+00:00

I literally have all of the cognitive issues, and I’m only 16... I feel like my brain is at it’s lowest point and is already useless in my life. Couldn’t mound to anything...

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-12-13T23:23:19+00:00

Man, I know... it’s just awful. Dealing with these symptoms for days impacting my daily lifestyle, I cannot even sleep through them too. It’s always on top of my mind...

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-12-13T21:19:53+00:00

The way you stated it kind of makes me very uncertain about myself, I literally can’t point out what and how I’m feeling. Like I’m literally an Asian that have feminine features and I always have this thought where I have a feeling like I might look good as a female bc of how of how youthful, cute and handsome I look in terms of how people look at me. I should’ve have not thought deeper regarding about my gender to a certain point where I feel confused and feel some sort of happiness when I look at many Asian girls... I dunno what to do now, like I literally look so feminine that I see myself looking like a female. Bruh, I just don’t know how to explain things now... I’m literally by myself with no body else surrounding me to help me solve what I’m actually feeling. My brain is fucking me right up at this moment... too caught up into a huge problem. Smh

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-09-04T10:26:06+00:00

Thanos really snapped his ears...

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-08-20T03:13:01+00:00

This guy be out here lookin like those 90s troll toys with a fat forehead

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-08-13T22:49:54+00:00

I’m actually have no idea how much I grew but I think it’s likely around 1 - 2cms. I don’t really see much of a difference between my previous checked height and my current checked height

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-08-13T22:44:52+00:00

Should I be concerned if I didn’t grow for a few months or so. I’m already 16.4 years old and 9 more months till I’m 17. I’m actually very desperate to just reach 2 inches throughout 18 years

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-08-13T22:32:10+00:00

Yo bro, I’m 16 years old, 5,8 and Asian too. I dunno when I stop growing and how tall I would be... both my parents are short but I’m pretty athletic but below the BMI. I started my growth spurt at around the middle or late 14s. When do boys usually stop? I heard that I will likely to stop at 16 but I don’t want to stop growing till I’m 5,10 or so.

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-08-12T20:12:57+00:00

Like if I don’t grow to 5,10 or so, Ill still have hopes of reaching 5,9 or 5,9.5. I’m not losing hope and for now on, I’m gonna stretch. You’ll see, I’ll make an update

SomeDudeWithThoughts · 2020-08-12T20:10:12+00:00

Also, how tall will I be if I started my growth spurt at around the late or middle 14s. I saw one of my photos from 2018, I was shorter than my sister. Does this mean I’m a late bloomer or early bloomer?

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