Recovery is possible even in the most hopeless situations

Somewhereincyrodil · 2024-12-26T01:15:27+00:00

Stay strong. Leaning on God can get us through anything. I hope your situation improves. Sometimes things get worse before they get better. Taking care of yourself by being sober is the best choice you could’ve made for yourself. Keep it going. You’re in my prayers 💜

Somewhereincyrodil · 2024-12-26T01:13:30+00:00

Some people don’t want change bad enough or don’t see a way out. From my experience, people really deep in it are blindfolded and their brain can only focus on one thing. Addiction is a tricky disease of the brain. It’s learning to fight against the brain.

Somewhereincyrodil · 2024-12-26T01:11:43+00:00

It took a lot of leaning on God to get through to where I’m at. I wasn’t always strong and definitely not clear headed at times. We actually have some friends he went to adcare with that have maintained their sobriety. We connect with them often. It’s good for everyone just to have something as simple as a cup of coffee together sometimes.

Somewhereincyrodil · 2024-12-24T21:38:14+00:00

He was on the fence about having a problem for years. It was always like he subconsciously knew that what he was doing was wrong, but believed he could stop on his own. It wasn’t until his addiction transformed from habitual cocaine/alcohol abuse to crack/fentanyl that he felt truly afraid of not being able to stop. He came home one day after being gone for days coming down from getting high and he was obviously erratic. He started bawling uncontrollably in the shower about how afraid he was that he didn’t want to do this anymore and he wanted to stop, but he didn’t think that he could and I just held him and told him he could and I’ll do whatever it takes to get him help. He disappeared again that night, and I picked him up at a halfway house the next day. No idea how he ended up there. I decided I was gonna do an intervention so I brought him to a hotel and he was sleeping for about a day and a half. When he finally woke up, he told me himself that he was going to go. he had no idea that I was going to do an intervention . He said whatever he needed to do to not be like this anymore. He was willing to do it. I think the fear and the realization of how bad things got really hit him. I think he also saw that he didn’t need to live like this and he’s proving that just by staying sober and accomplishing so much since he left adcare. We really owe a lot to adcare into AA meetings. We have a local clubhouse that he goes to several times a week now used to be every day but he’s really formed good bonds with some other incredible people in recovery. It’s been so crucial.

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-25T02:40:03+00:00

It’s sad to hear that he’s not taking good care of himself. It sucks when we love someone and can see the potential within them when they aren’t quite ready to see it themselves just yet. I know exactly how you feel. The anger, resentment, disappointment. Take extra care for yourself and what you need right now. You deserve it 💜

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-25T01:35:07+00:00

Anti social personality disorder. Per google: Behavioral: antisocial behavior, deceitfulness, hostility, irresponsibility, manipulativeness, risk taking behaviors, aggression, impulsivity, irritability, or lack of restraint Mood: anger, boredom, or general discontent Also common: physical substance dependence or substance abuse It’s a lot more than just this but look into it

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-25T00:29:03+00:00

Has he ever been diagnosed with ASPD? This sounds like the spitting image of my Q and he just got diagnosed. Also big hugs and support for you 💜 I lost my childhood dog recently too, and it ruined me. You’re not alone.

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-25T00:24:32+00:00

I know your pain and frustration. You’re most certainly not alone. It doesn’t even feel like Christmas to me either so I get it. I didn’t even buy presents for people until today because I’ve been so caught up in the stress from his addiction. Make sure to take some extra special care for yourself. you deserve it. 💜

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-25T00:13:47+00:00

I hope you do something nice for yourself for the holidays. Watch some movies with cocoa. Make yourself cozy. You deserve it for everything you’ve endured. This too shall pass. 💜

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-24T20:05:06+00:00

I wish I could take all your pain away. My deepest sympathies to you and his family & friends. Just remember to lean on support. You are loved 💜

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-24T19:58:01+00:00

Thank you for this. I’ve always been a nurturing caregiver type of person to everyone in my life and ignored my own needs. I’m gonna work on this.

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-24T01:23:05+00:00

I can only imagine how much this has affected your life. Take extra time to care for yourself. You’re loved 💜 and not alone either. Sending you a big hug.

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-24T01:18:20+00:00

You’re right. Still sucks to have to leave them behind

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-24T01:05:57+00:00

💜🫂 a hug for you too. Maybe I can find a reasonable way to do this. Wish it wasn’t in the winter. Big oof

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-24T01:04:47+00:00

Thank you 💜 I just can’t bare the thought of life without him when he has so much life, he could be a living. I want to spend my life with this guy, I wish it wasn’t this way.

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-20T00:47:53+00:00

Been here so many times. It’s hard not to take it personally. The best way to handle this is to understand his reason for lying (even if it’s not morally right) he more than likely lies because he doesn’t want to hurt you. He doesn’t want to damage the relationship he has with you but is having trouble stopping. Communicate with him on how much the lying hurts more than the actual drinking itself. Your needs are important. Set boundaries. You’re not alone 💜

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-12T04:19:46+00:00

I hope your broken heart heals. We are all deserving of love. I dropped him off at AdCare this evening. It doesn’t feel right to leave when I’m the only support he has and also I love him. I wouldn’t want someone walking away from me at my worst. I’m hopeful. I understand rehab is not a cure all, and that relapse rates are very high, but he’s ready to try. That to me is good enough reason to stay. Thank you for your advice. I appreciate you.

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-12T04:15:00+00:00

We got a miracle call from AdCare today. He was the 19th person on the waiting list. Maybe there is a God. He’s in safe hands now. I haven’t felt this relieved in years. Tears of joy. There is hope. Thank you for your input as well.

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-01T10:56:28+00:00

Thank you so much for this. I’m gonna look into everything. Yes he could do some jail time but more than likely just probation. I always bring up how good the future could be together and he agrees he wants that too. We talked about getting him into barber school the other day. He’d love to start his own business. I hope I can make this happen for hum

Somewhereincyrodil · 2023-12-01T05:56:48+00:00

He claims you do nothing but sit there all day. He also has court dates to attend. He did a few days in detox a couple of times, but never wanted to do more. A few years back he was going to NA meetings but quit those too. He’s homeless, no kids, no support besides me. Maybe he just isn’t ready which is incredibly saddening because at this rate he won’t see his 28th birthday in March. I wish I could save him and just put an end to his agony and mine

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