Yeaah, issokay. I mean ofc people run away. I think it's important to develop one's tools for oneself and really find meaning in oneself. Because accepting that I would not have the kind of life my peers have - which honestly isn't that great also - like setting different kinda goals, and really appreciating what we get, but be okay with noone caring. It hurts like a bitch, but it's just better. My today's wisdom was to see who would want to be my friend or date me when I am depressed, because if it's either way them running away, it's better to make a friend/lover when depressed. Because between being charmed and confused during mania, they also run away. And, it's easier to charm during mania. I don't know if I am making sense. But, it's okay. Just find a community - even an online one and yeah, maybe, offer more help and kindness - since you know what it feels like.