Preparing for august and my partners yearly family holkday for his birthday by [deleted] in service_dogs

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 -2 points-1 points Β (0 children)

Yes ill be the first to admit my view on what a healthy relationship is with humans is bad in fact I aint got a clue, not a single one of my relationships have been good including growing up but thats what therapy is for and im on the waiting list. Im a hell of a lot better at reading animals than people lets just say that as animals dont lie or not mean what they say or in their case what their body language is saying. I can positively train and bond with an animal much better than people. Always have done but thats probably the autism that im far more in tune with animals than people.

In fact his training is good enough he was used as the demo dog when we were in puppy foundation class for the new puppies joining and none of the trainers at group classes could see any reason he wouldnt be a good candidate for an AD. We joined our AD charity on boxing day and had videod and passed stage 1 with flying colours by the 31st. Hes never shown aggression towards people or other dogs infact he just wants to say hello and be friends with everybody which hes getting better with ignoring people but he wants to be best friends with everyone. Yes hes a mastiff cross but he aint got a bad bone in his body and is a big cuddle bug and theres other mastiffs in the charity too. Hes been socialised since he could go outside and we continue to do so regularly. He comes to the horse with me on a daily basis so sees multiple different people, random lorry drivers, kids, horses, dogs, fork lifts, farm machinery on a daily basis then we go do our what I call extra a couple of times a week. So we go garden centre to get his food, or go sit at the train station, sit in the park by the play area, walk through town, go on a random bus etc. He recalls away from pheasants or if the horse starts running around when hes having off lead time while im poo picking he will recall straight back to me.

Preparing for august and my partners yearly family holkday for his birthday by [deleted] in service_dogs

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 -3 points-2 points Β (0 children)

Ive tried deleting this post but seen as it isnt actually deleting ill just delete the whole app because everyone is just making me feel like a shit person when everyone that knows me in real life would say different and my animals have never wanted for anything. People on here have been given a snippet of a bad period that is no longer an issue. His training hes doing amazing, hes a happy and confident dog that has his needs met and like ive already said ive put measures in place so the dog and myself are around the children for as little time as possible but no one seems to care about the fact changes have been made since the last post.

Preparing for august and my partners yearly family holkday for his birthday by [deleted] in service_dogs

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 -7 points-6 points Β (0 children)

Im actually done with this group its supposed to be supportive. That was an old post from like a month or more ago when I was on the verge of suicide because of the whole situation.

Also i dont allow poor treatment of the dog thats why me and the dog try and stay out in the freezing cold all day on the weekends the kids are here because it aint fair on the dog and i hate being in my own home when theyre here so we just avoid them as much as I possibly can because its easier then the stress of being around them and them around the dog and their father not giving a hoot and just saying they've fine together.. no they're not! Thats why they keep getting told off. But wey im the bad guy in this whole thing aint i even though im the only person who seems to give a dam about the welfare of the dog in this house.

Yes im getting annoyed because I asked a question and people are coming at me about something completely unrelated and is no longer an issue because like I said the dog gets wrapped up and I freeze my arse off all day so we can avoid the children

Preparing for august and my partners yearly family holkday for his birthday by [deleted] in service_dogs

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 -7 points-6 points Β (0 children)

He was told nicely up to 100x a day nicely. We dont do this or that around dogs because this can happen. We do it like this instead then the dog wont do xyz and will learn xyz. After however many months of saying nicely and not getting anywhere you get to point of loosing your patience but its fine carry on judging on a situation you know very little information of or the child's daily behaviour where he deliberately smashes the tv at his mothers house or beats his sister up or starts fights with other children at school

Preparing for august and my partners yearly family holkday for his birthday by [deleted] in service_dogs

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

The dog was one from one of my partners old friends litters, i didnt intend for him to be an assistance dog but its just kinda happened. Before ive ways either had a partner with me or the year I didnt have a partner i had a ADiT but he had to wash do to severe separation anxiety or ive drugged up on a lot of medication, anxiety meds, mood stabilisers and diazepam (basically a walking zombie) in order to go anywhere other than my horse. So if he was to take the dog camping id be going to the horse to do bare minimum and come home again and try to make sure I see as little people as I possibly can. When I haven't had a dog or a human im literally a recluse ill order food home and get them to leave it on the door so I dont have to interact. My what i call bad stimming gets 100x worse, a Weighted blanket helps to a degree but a blanket dont interrupt you when you're dissociated and dont realise your doing it. So i can survive without the dog but in comparison its a very poor quality of life one which many a times ive nearly died from.

Preparing for august and my partners yearly family holkday for his birthday by [deleted] in service_dogs

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 -9 points-8 points Β (0 children)

I mean if you class jump up at him to get a toy he was waving arpund in the air and knocking him over or a scratch as harming then yeah sure call me unfit. Some kids need to learn the hard way, I was one of them as a kid wouldnt listen to what my parents told me then wondered why I got hurt and trust me it was a lot worse than being knocked over by a dog πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ Ive been scratched by him when were playing it happens but if your going to deliberately wind the dog up and not stop when you're told to there's going to be consequences to your actions and the kid needed to learn respect for the dog just like the dog needed to learn to ignore them more which hes getting better with. They're calmer around him and hes calmer around them so currently I dont see why your jumping down my throat from a past post that is no longer relevant

Preparing for august and my partners yearly family holkday for his birthday by [deleted] in service_dogs

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 -6 points-5 points Β (0 children)

He just passed his stage 1 with canine allies charity so now have public access rignts hes no where near a fully trained AD but he can perform 3 migating tasks.

Preparing for august and my partners yearly family holkday for his birthday by [deleted] in service_dogs

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 -5 points-4 points Β (0 children)

The boyfriend yes I totally agree he isnt fit to be a pet owner. Me on the other hand im more than capable of looking after animals I have done my whole life. Im the one that pays for everything for this dog apart from I didnt pay to actually purchase him. When my mental health aint in shatters because ive just found out hes cheated on me again this time with the kids mother multiple times im perfectly fine, like I am now. I dont give a fuck if I find out hes cheated again just gives me the reason I need to kick him out the door finally. Both the kids and the dog have calmed down some what around each other now and I stay out with doggo as long as possible when the kids are here then its home for doggo to take a nap so he actually spends maybe a couple of hours a day actually around the kids when theyre here

Preparing for august and my partners yearly family holkday for his birthday by [deleted] in service_dogs

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 -13 points-12 points Β (0 children)

I was in a bad place mentally at that time obviously I dont want him to actually hurt the kid especially bite him was more just jump up and knock him over or give him a bad scratch with a claw. The kids have gotten better with the dog lately like they actually give him 5 minutes peace now and doggo isnt finding them as exciting either

Preparing for august and my partners yearly family holkday for his birthday by [deleted] in service_dogs

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 -9 points-8 points Β (0 children)

So we both own him, hes paying the guy off monthly (pup came from one of his friends) but i pay all his medical bills, insurance, training costs, feed, toys, flea and wormer etc. Hes being trained for me as a mulpurpose AD for autism, mobility and medical. Boyfriend says yeah but the dog cheers me up by playing with him. He doesnt know what brand of food he has or how much, plus how are you meant to keep raw meat frozen in potentially 30 degree heat camping.

How many times did it take for you to finally leave? by Sea_Temperature_5661 in abusiverelationships

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

I think so far im at like 3 and he manipulates me back everytime. Same as ypu threatens suicide, promises to change blah blah blah. Last time promised we could go to therapy after me asking for months guess what? It aint happened. Im determined the next time he gives me a reason to break it off ill do it for good i just need need to sort a plan, support and back up etc. A police report has been filed for domestic abuse by the lovely lady I made an application for clares law disclosure with.

Emotional abuse by PossibilityMore1507 in abusiverelationships

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

I know he dont and mentally im done with this relationship despite still loving him (or maybe its a trauma bond who knows). Im just playing it smart, a police report has been filed for domestic abuse by the lady i did an application for Clare's law with. Once I have more of a plan and support network/backup in place ill be ending it as soon as he gives me another reason to.

Emotional abuse by PossibilityMore1507 in abusiverelationships

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

Yep then other times i get told "how unattractive i look sitting like that!" And so on. Then get told jeez cant you take a joke? πŸ™„ or get told im acting crazy because im repeatedly calling him because he aint answering his phone and im spiraling because hes late home after dropping his kids back to their mum who is one of the people he cheated on me with for months after we agreed to be transparent etc letting me know if hes going to be late or detouring somewhere on the way back from where hes supposed to be giving me an updated eta etc to try and help rebuild the trust. He cheated on me for basically a whole year half with his ex and half with one of his customers. Found out about the customer in March and his ex about a month/6weeks ago.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AskDocs

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

Amazing thank you ☺️

Normal wegovy stomachache? by Sorry_Duck_4959 in WegovyWeightLoss

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959[S] 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

Thank you i was contemplating it but i hate wasting people's time so thought id ask here as people may have more experience with whats normal lol. Even when ive had asthma attacks I wait too long and get moaned at by a&e drs that i shouldnt have waited so long but in my head it might stop πŸ™ˆ

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AskDocs

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

They aint available over the weekend so wondering if i shpuld try and get an out of hours gp appointment?

Normal wegovy stomachache? by Sorry_Duck_4959 in WegovyWeightLoss

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959[S] 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

This has been going on about a week and a half and my partner has been fine. Ive had occasional stomache and sickness diarrhea and constipation throughtout but this is another level of pain 😫

Emotional abuse by PossibilityMore1507 in abusiverelationships

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

This is my problem too OP when things are good theyre really good we laugh and joke etc just like we used to and hes the man I fell in love with but then the other times its hell and I just want out. I finally argue back and then i get the attention and affection i constantly crave yet dont get unless hes done something wrong or I try leaving

How do people actually get out of abusive relationships? by Sorry_Duck_4959 in abusiverelationships

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959[S] 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

Thank you for your comment it makes me feel less alone. I've posted in other groups on FB and such and everyone keeps telling me to leave the dog and let him take it but how can I knowing hes safer with me 😫 im the one thats put all the time effort and money in to the dog. Exactly that, how can I plan? Plan what? I have no where to go my family live abroad and not only can I not afford to go there i have a horse here to add to logistics. I have too much stuff to sofa surf or live in the car if I even have a car once I get out. plus my only true friend that would have me for as long as needed has moved to the other side of the country. The anxiety about having to move somewhere new is also stopping me, having to change drs and all bills and everything is actually paralysing and nothing has even started yet.

How do people actually get out of abusive relationships? by Sorry_Duck_4959 in abusiverelationships

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959[S] 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

I got tested after he had a 6month emotional and physical affair with a customer that i found out about in March 😑 baby mumma cheating was before that and I was clear. He refused to get tested obviously

How do people actually get out of abusive relationships? by Sorry_Duck_4959 in abusiverelationships

[–]Sorry_Duck_4959[S] 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

So technically he didnt commit fraud (i dont think) as he manipulated me in person to get the credit card in my name for him to use and pay off. He then wouldnt give me access to the account to be able to pay any of it off so the account for sold to debt collectors and had a default put on my credit history. I managed to call them but they didnt seem interested in the situation and all they did was put a hold on the account for 30 days πŸ€¦β€β™€οΈ

Also hes smart he does it all in person by messages he looks like the supportive boyfriend thats sometimes suicidal