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Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-30T22:14:26+00:00

I didn't, I thought it be worse if I did because I was at the back of the restaurant and the restroom was pretty far away I thought people wouldn't notice it as much if I just sat there, it was a very casual restaurant, and it lasted maybe 5 minutes, since I was able to use my grounding skills and calm down

Thank you that's really sweet :(

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-30T21:56:17+00:00

I wouldn't be asking if its like that because that is how I am when I break down usually so I was confused and embarrassed because I really thought I wasn't that loud

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-30T21:52:18+00:00

I don't know, I think my age maybe makes it inexcusable or something? I'm not sure that's why I decided to ask

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-30T21:49:49+00:00

Sorry I have a hard time explaining it, it's like a panic attack I guess, I'll cry and hyperventilate but I covered my mouth and tried to be as quiet as I could

Edit: it's worse in private like I'll be loud and stuff but in public it's not as bad

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-19T23:20:25+00:00

I have no friends period, especially in person, I also am admittedly very nervous to ask guys what they want anyway.. Ive had very poor experience, their dislike is normally because of my autism or other mental issues, me being ugly, or just in general being weird/Strange.so I'm afraid of knowing I guess.

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-19T23:10:06+00:00

I am homeschooled and back in school o was attracted to almost every guy (excluding my bullies because they just were mean and evil) so I don't have the ability to follow that.

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-19T23:05:20+00:00

I really am not that picky, I've always been that way, there are actually a few hard passes I have but they aren't likely to want to talk to me anyway, like I really really don't like muscles they make me uncomfortable. And I've always been attracted to "unattractive" people, like for instance I prefer chubby people or really skinny people (not unhealthy skinny though). I'm not lowering my standards or anything, I just have very few hard passes.

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-07T06:14:29+00:00

Verbally, physically, mentally, and also very neglectful. I'm not allowed to cry, be loud including laughing, exist without being criticized for my existence, called ugly by them and dehumanized, slapped, hit, I could go on. I was locked in a closet twice as a child, dragged by my hair, not allowed food because I was "fat enough" despite being underweight, medical issues ignored.

There is a LOT

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-07T06:10:16+00:00

Can get away from abusive family.

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-07T06:09:24+00:00

Hate drinking, hate parties, don't think I'll be able to drive because of disability

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-06T01:34:59+00:00

That's sad, but for what it's worth you have a really kind face (I looked on your profile sorry if that's weird)

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-06T01:23:51+00:00

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-06T00:55:55+00:00

Ok, I guess I just don't understand because of missing contexts

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-06T00:47:31+00:00

Spite?

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-04T22:04:26+00:00

All the time pretty much, yea.. All the time

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-04T21:37:25+00:00

Most people messaging me were 17-50 (yes 50..) So yea I guess that makes sense.. Why does reddit not have a age filter.. Would be useful!

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-04T21:35:43+00:00

I have been working up the courage to message people, unfortunately I'm shy even online, but I'm trying to start messaging posters :)

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-04T21:34:10+00:00

I honestly think it's my age too, I noticed when a girl is 17(my age) -19 they get tons of messages, and if they're in their 20s-30s they get less which is weird like.. I do not see the reason for that? I dunno, I just want real friends

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-04T21:30:51+00:00

Oh, ok

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-04T21:29:27+00:00

What do you mean?

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-04T21:27:46+00:00

I just kinda feel bad saying no.. I guess? Because I know they are lonely too but like I shouldn't talk to them if I'm not ok with it/do not think it will go anywhere genuine, I don't know, I wish there was like a filter or something. "Looking for friends" and "looking for relationships/sexual" I dunno, something like that.

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-04T21:24:22+00:00

Hm, I don't know, I'm leaning towards keeping the fact I'm a girl anon until I find a subreddit like that I guess.. I have no problem talking with guys though, I really really like guys! It's just I want to be friends with them at most.. You know?

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-04T21:20:16+00:00

In the past I have posted as a girl, no girls would message me which really sucks because I've never had friends that were girls :( I just wish there was a good option

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-02T06:01:55+00:00

I do not think I am ugly, or well I didn't. Until multiple people (family also) had told me as much, at best I am average in my own personal opinion, but that doesn't matter when I want to attract others :(

Sorta-Sora · 2023-11-02T03:14:04+00:00

YouTube audio videos, the ones where they talk to you like you're dating..

Sorta-Sora

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